CHaOs???

The week has been uneventful for me, but at least i managed to clear 3 tuitions all in one week... one more barely 7 hrs later... Down with a flu n just recovered, but starting coughing already... chose ALTERNATIVE MEDICINE hahahaha... may or may not help, i'm not sure...

well, the past week for the world has not been uneventful, in fact fraught with crises. From the homegrown dengue problem, to the rising bird flu in Indonesia taking away lives, to the Bali bombing sequela, to the Canadian unknown disease (prob another flu/ SARS / sth of tt sort???) to the threatening of 12 ambassies in Malaysia with possible terrorist acts... The world is indeed not peaceful... More ppl will suffer as a result, more crises, more woes, more tears and blood.

Is it that the world has always been fraught with many many woes, except that i have been ignorant of (eg civil war in some country? disease wiping a whole town?) all along, or is there really going to be a great tragedy imminent? There nothing much we can do about the impending crises / deaths, except to brace up for the occasion.

Read something about suffering these few days... 2 corinthians 12:10 "When I am weak, then I am strong" and how disabled people best understood the grace of the Lord, only when they've experienced and accepted their weakness (disability).... Cant really fully comprehend this, but i guess when one is at his weakest, can he stand up to the test and live with greater strength and perseverance - u need strength to overcome and get away from the weakness

Not sure if i've been through something truly worth calling weakness, but always felt that it is through all these experiences that makes us learn important lessons in our lives... In the comfort of the chair in front of the computer, one thinks of the suffering of someone plaqued by famine, with all empathy, with all desire to help out - but frankly, will this person really understand how it is like to be hungry all his life??? We thought we learn through reflection and observation, but truth is, we learn best through personal crises, and at the end, we all emerge "stronger... than yesterday!!!"

We can think all we want, can probe and wonder about the world, but it will all be but a dream. A white piece of paper we'd still remain. Only when we pick up a pencil and draw it out, will we be a beautiful picture. There may also be certain things that are erased in the process of drawing, but no matter how clean they are erased, the mark made by the pencil will remain as part of the picture... regardless of whether there is a carbon marking or not. Such is the essence of learning through experience (and possible suffering?)

ooops think i'm crapping too much. it always happens... as it always does to me... letting the soul run free in the middle of the serene night.

I am beckoned... to my place of rest...

may the world too rest... and rediscover the peace... and joy!

NITEZ