有同样的感动。
再体会那单纯，
再回味那赤心。
一切历历在目，
仿佛没离开过。
世界不停转动，
心仍逗留那刻。
它 —— 已是个烙印。。。
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Have not blogged for a long time. Always couldnt really sit down and sort out my thoughts. Always needed a quiet nite when im quite awake... but it nvr happened... had many things to blog on several occasions, but it all fizzled out by the mugging and little sleep that i had...
shall try to recall and blog out several thoughts. impromptu... just wateva comes to my mind
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PEOPLE
guess time is really a great filter.
The previous few weeks, i saw many different ppl in sch. It is really interesting how sometimes when u noe tt person, but u try to smile and greet em, they react as if they hav not known u at all.
Then there are those whom you dont recall knowing, smiling and waving at you. (well tink its amusing tt they hav recognised the wrong person!) Friends become strangers, and strangers becoming friends. It is sad... that people whom you once could chat with effortlessly, now become people whom u find difficult to even start a conversation. It often end up with a deafening silence, a helpless smile and a pair of fleeting eyes...
lament... seems to be the only thing tt i can do...
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MEMORIES
guess its the gemini trait... to hav a great sense of nostalgia, even after a long time...
really cherish all the memories i have... good or bad... cos they represent each n every phase of life, reminding me constantly tt i hav a varied and interesting life... that all has been exciting so far, and more excitement and challenges await.
always wanted to write down wateva i think, wateva i do, wateva ppl say... cos each on its own at each point in time, is unique. Like to take pictures. Even more, LOVE to take videos - for it is a real life representation. Always hoped i can put a video cam at the angle of my eyes, so tt i can record everything tt i c, hear, do. and also wat others are doing. den store all these memories and review them when i am free... for each memory will not present itself again. Even if u repeat the same thing with the same ppl, the feeling will just be different.
But many a times, it may because im lazy or too busy to record... end up alw regretting not putting things into video...
i wish to hold on, but i know, i hav to learn to let go......
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LOVE
Hmmm... many ppl ard me are getting attached... haha dun ask me when it's my turn, cos i really dunno. Have not met a person whom i can share my life... in my view, its "love can be just one time, and last for a lifetime" sounds familiar? too cliche? well, tink tt's my firm belief. tt's y im alw hesitant.
my tuition kid was sharing his story tt day... well other than his being a childish infatuation, there are certain things which i can learn from, cos frm wat i said to him, i began to understand the true meaning of love...
but not thinking too much about it, cos believe God will take care of it. If im supposed to be without tt special someone, so be it... not fretting, and definitely not ferreting at this point in time... i just wanna b a good doctor...
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IDEALS
like many other young teens, i've had my share of ambitions and ideals. Had been working hard towards it ever since i set em. Wateva i did in the past - be it CCAs or choice of subjects - have alw been targeted at attaining my goal. but guess for the first time in my life, this motivation and drive have gone... for im not even sure if i can last, not even sure of the steps i hav to take to attain my dream of being a paediatrician. I can alw plan steps and so on, but guess these after many yrs of pushing myself ahead, all the stress has led to me slowing down my thinking and planning. Cos theres a sense of lethargy... i know exactly the steps to take, but though the spirit is willing, the flesh is weak... i will just continue to try to pass at every stage of the MBBS, before looking forward into the future.
for the first time i really dunno where i m headed to
i just pray for His guidance.
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hmmm... am still searching... am still trying to reinforce my Faith.
God, thank you for everything...
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LIFE
life in itself is an intrinsically complex artwork. No one can comprehend, no one can predict. It is this tt makes life interesting and beautiful. It is this tt makes it so enigmatic and mysterious. It is this tt makes it so colourful and not boring.
there are no right or wrong choices in life. It all depends on how one react upon it and how one take the choices. LIfe is too short to have room for regrets, hence live it to the fullest and enjoy every single moment!
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juz some random ramblings...
need to slp le... can still write, and am not tired... but guess i need to get into bed already...
the new day is full of promises
i wish you all the best! Enjoy your day!!! each day is special!
