Random, really random.

Random thoughts... really random. No connection. Ignore me.

I live by the grace of God. :P
Currently suffering from the pre call blues. It shall be a good call.

Leaving this quiet, cold place; slightly nostalgic.
Tired, for don't know what reason. Shall shut that caffeine out whenever i need a night's rest. Then again, caffeine usually does not have effect on my sleep.

Private, yet exposed.
So many people are looking, yet you don't know who.

Does this run from the thoughts of a depressed person? No.
Yet it may appear so.

Happy times, interesting times, challenging times, sad times, worrying times, unnerving times.

I need His strength, His peace.
I need Him.

Learn to be in His presence.

It is only His standards I will try to achieve, no one else's matters.

The redness is coming back, i can really see the connection between the physical and the spiritual.

He that controlleth his tongue controlleth his whole body. I know why my body's not under control. I need to control my tongue.

just some random update :P

writing this on notepad. Easy to guess where I am. Kind of like this place. It can get crazily busy (5 in one afternoon), but sometimes, you do get a break. Like now. Its a quiet, isolated corner, far away from all the other busy places. True that sometimes you feel helpless cos you're the only one around. Yet sometimes you prefer to be alone. It didn't appear to be a great place to be at in the first place. I was getting used to the other place, getting used to my lovely seniors, and then came the news: one of you will have to be transferred to THAT place. Of course, being stuck with someone who already blatantly says he would not want to go, left me stuck. I just went ahead, since someone must go anyway. First day it was full of apprehension, not knowing what to expect. First thing that greeted me when i came in through the doors was hostility. "Please put on the gown!" I hurried to put them on. Was thinking if i were to be with my stern looking senior rounding every day and kena quizzed - sends shivers down my spine.

As the days went by, though it was busy like any other place, sorta enjoyed it much more cos i was with a familiar and nice senior, and my stern senior turned out to be really nice and caring, though her ways are really weird and unpredictable. Then things turned much better, made friends with the nurses, got to do exciting things like CVP insertion, nice nice seniors etc etc.

Looking out there's great scenery and really gives you a sense of peace. :P Don't mind staying here for the next 2 months (though i really think its impossible) with my nice nice senior ne! Haha we can be specialists man. We can predict who's positive and who's not. Especially those that i pre discharge usually turns out positive! :P

And still trying to be in His presence every moment, even during work!