dunno but juz feel tt i'm alw at the crossroads in many aspects.... n its cos of these crossroads, i nvr seem to be able to progress or go further... so while all others are moving ahead... i'm stuck at the same spot... alone....
dun like such crossroads.... for due to many factors, i'm usually a hesitant person n so many chances, slip away, cos i was merely standing rooted to the crossroads.... everyday tt i cant cross the current crossroad, i will nvr be able to progress... cos i have to make a decision... n after every one there's yet another crossroad...
if nt for many factors, i'd just merely have gone forward... nt miss any cars passing the roads, yet things are not tt easy as it seems... to take the first step often show a direct deviation frm the other road...in fact its much opposite... n there is no 3rd road.
guess the first step is always the hardest.... to pull ur leg from tt depth of soil u've been standing on for dunno how long is so tough... i can only fell myself sinking further down...
confused...
there should be only roads with branching off... not cross roads..... things shld juz be simple... yet they arent
Thursday, October 19, 2006
hahaha same name???
it's just when u're bored... n dunno why tagboard requires u to login... n etc n etc... that when u start to google ur name and see wat the search yield. hahaha well erhm yes... try it! haha i was surprised to get such a good long list of sites haha i didnt know there were ppl having the same name as me... using 2 "n"s instead of one at the back hahahaha
well so the search yielded things like haha intel general manager, house officer in some English hospital (wow... i hope tt will be me) haha and researcher n etc etc... all like so famous hahaha with many sites.... some had the attachment "MD" or "PhD" etc etc hahaha all so smart
goodness...
will it ever be my turn? haha dunno... its tooooooooooooooooooo long ahead to think.... my sml brain cant take it hahahaha
yupz
well so the search yielded things like haha intel general manager, house officer in some English hospital (wow... i hope tt will be me) haha and researcher n etc etc... all like so famous hahaha with many sites.... some had the attachment "MD" or "PhD" etc etc hahaha all so smart
goodness...
will it ever be my turn? haha dunno... its tooooooooooooooooooo long ahead to think.... my sml brain cant take it hahahaha
yupz
Saturday, August 26, 2006
ThInK AgAiN
A day has just passed...
It was truly uneventful... In a harsher vocabulary, it has been wasted. Just couldn't bring myself to study, though I have lots of grounds to cover. Read abit of jaundice n that was it. Didnt go tuition. Didnt go out. Didnt do anything. Bummed around. Making jelly, making coffee, finding paper, fixing my handphone... all the mundane things that I wont do in my right mind. Well, yes I watched TV too...
Not sure why I just couldn't concentrate... was it cos the rubber band has been overstretched? I really do not have an answer. I did not feel lazy, but I just could not do it. Well yes I think the feeling of bumming around when you have lotsa things to do is really a terrible feeling... Probably a physiological response fr my weird body trying to make myself take a rest. On one side my brain's telling me to shut down itself cos its being overworked, but the other half told me that I was already not fully utilising my brain n if i still did not work it, I would lose all the electrical connections in it.
N now... just as the day is ending... I've come to a sudden realisation as I reflect on my life the past few months or probably even years. I haven been thinking enough. Really... Not using the other side of the brain for too long so much so tt I've forgotten how to think, how to put my thoughts down, how to express myself adequately. Realised I've just been using the most basic vocabulary to communicate with the rest of the world. Realised how dense I have become...
No its not the reading memorising part of me... its the higher mental functions that are not utilised. the emotions, the expressions, the thinking... Have not really been thinking. Reflecting upon my days since i started M2... it has really been a mindless activity. Have wasted one full year just living without thinking. Have really wasted one full year...
The past year has been one without ferreting, one without questions asked, one without active participation. It has been a year lived only by INSTINCT. Why by instinct? cos the mind was not working. the thinking mind was shut down for a year.... N now m really finding hard to reactivate it.
What do I mean by living just purely by instinct? Well... cos I've been doing what I am suppose to do, feeling what I'm suppose to feel n even when relaxing n enjoying, I am doing it cos I have to do it. I am not truly doing the things I have done. Put it simply, everything was done cos it was required by the environment. It was mindless mugging, exams, relax, mugging exams, relax... Just doing what I am suppose to do when the time comes. Doing what my BODY asks me to do, NOT my MIND. Eating when my body needs a better meal, abstaining when my body feels distressed. Even for such a simple thing like eating.... if you ask me wat would i like for lunch, i would say "i dont know"... cos i really dunno... eating for the sake of eating... drinking coffee for the sake of drinking... even when it comes to things like eating meat balls... well, the "craving" for meatballs arise only cos I have not eaten meatball for a long time... not cos I want to eat meatballs...
Dunno... even now I dun even know how I want to put my thoughts across....
Even in my relationship with God, it seems, have not improved over the past year. It seems that I do not even have time to think, integrate, remember and apply all the things I have read. It has almost become a set algorithm: read, remember, follow. Nothing really goes through the substance in between the ears. Which is bad.... N i really want to change that...
Probably He has put this day in to jolt me back to where I started... so that I will not continue to slide down the slippery slope.
ROBOTIC is the only apt word I can use to describe myself now. Using lots of the body, but using nothing up there. Yes like the robot... programmed to feel happy when I am suppose to... programmed to feel when I dun even know if I am feeling or not.
Yes but at least, there's one thing that was not lost... the joy, the feeling of being overwhelmed in His presence; the euphoria, being moved, when I sing praises of Him...
i better start THINKING AGAIN...
it's time.
It was truly uneventful... In a harsher vocabulary, it has been wasted. Just couldn't bring myself to study, though I have lots of grounds to cover. Read abit of jaundice n that was it. Didnt go tuition. Didnt go out. Didnt do anything. Bummed around. Making jelly, making coffee, finding paper, fixing my handphone... all the mundane things that I wont do in my right mind. Well, yes I watched TV too...
Not sure why I just couldn't concentrate... was it cos the rubber band has been overstretched? I really do not have an answer. I did not feel lazy, but I just could not do it. Well yes I think the feeling of bumming around when you have lotsa things to do is really a terrible feeling... Probably a physiological response fr my weird body trying to make myself take a rest. On one side my brain's telling me to shut down itself cos its being overworked, but the other half told me that I was already not fully utilising my brain n if i still did not work it, I would lose all the electrical connections in it.
N now... just as the day is ending... I've come to a sudden realisation as I reflect on my life the past few months or probably even years. I haven been thinking enough. Really... Not using the other side of the brain for too long so much so tt I've forgotten how to think, how to put my thoughts down, how to express myself adequately. Realised I've just been using the most basic vocabulary to communicate with the rest of the world. Realised how dense I have become...
No its not the reading memorising part of me... its the higher mental functions that are not utilised. the emotions, the expressions, the thinking... Have not really been thinking. Reflecting upon my days since i started M2... it has really been a mindless activity. Have wasted one full year just living without thinking. Have really wasted one full year...
The past year has been one without ferreting, one without questions asked, one without active participation. It has been a year lived only by INSTINCT. Why by instinct? cos the mind was not working. the thinking mind was shut down for a year.... N now m really finding hard to reactivate it.
What do I mean by living just purely by instinct? Well... cos I've been doing what I am suppose to do, feeling what I'm suppose to feel n even when relaxing n enjoying, I am doing it cos I have to do it. I am not truly doing the things I have done. Put it simply, everything was done cos it was required by the environment. It was mindless mugging, exams, relax, mugging exams, relax... Just doing what I am suppose to do when the time comes. Doing what my BODY asks me to do, NOT my MIND. Eating when my body needs a better meal, abstaining when my body feels distressed. Even for such a simple thing like eating.... if you ask me wat would i like for lunch, i would say "i dont know"... cos i really dunno... eating for the sake of eating... drinking coffee for the sake of drinking... even when it comes to things like eating meat balls... well, the "craving" for meatballs arise only cos I have not eaten meatball for a long time... not cos I want to eat meatballs...
Dunno... even now I dun even know how I want to put my thoughts across....
Even in my relationship with God, it seems, have not improved over the past year. It seems that I do not even have time to think, integrate, remember and apply all the things I have read. It has almost become a set algorithm: read, remember, follow. Nothing really goes through the substance in between the ears. Which is bad.... N i really want to change that...
Probably He has put this day in to jolt me back to where I started... so that I will not continue to slide down the slippery slope.
ROBOTIC is the only apt word I can use to describe myself now. Using lots of the body, but using nothing up there. Yes like the robot... programmed to feel happy when I am suppose to... programmed to feel when I dun even know if I am feeling or not.
Yes but at least, there's one thing that was not lost... the joy, the feeling of being overwhelmed in His presence; the euphoria, being moved, when I sing praises of Him...
i better start THINKING AGAIN...
it's time.
Sunday, August 20, 2006
FeeLiNg TiReD
haiz... wanted to blog muchmuch but felt very tired after today's episode... i was pissed but i just couldnt bring myself to get angry in front of others...cos they are my good frens... but dunno y... i really wanted to burst out scolding...last time i wont actually mind, but... well but i didnt scold anyone in the end...
too lazy to describe the details....
come to tink of it i nvr really flared up in front of others haha... but i tink tt's really unhealthy...
hmmm just tired.... waiting for hair to dry... den go slp le... tml's surg starting... dun feel ready though... or perhaps im nvr ready... prob cos i've gotta give tuition aft lesson... which is like so tiring cos i gotta go home late again.... hai...prob tt's y i felt like flaring up... cos i hate ppl to postpone things last min... n today both my tutee n frens tried to postpone the tuition n meeting, so much so tt i had to cancel my tuition... tired ne
yupz haha will blog when im in better moods...
too lazy to describe the details....
come to tink of it i nvr really flared up in front of others haha... but i tink tt's really unhealthy...
hmmm just tired.... waiting for hair to dry... den go slp le... tml's surg starting... dun feel ready though... or perhaps im nvr ready... prob cos i've gotta give tuition aft lesson... which is like so tiring cos i gotta go home late again.... hai...prob tt's y i felt like flaring up... cos i hate ppl to postpone things last min... n today both my tutee n frens tried to postpone the tuition n meeting, so much so tt i had to cancel my tuition... tired ne
yupz haha will blog when im in better moods...
Thursday, July 13, 2006
God's promises
Read this off a poster in AH, outside one of the isolation rooms...
No title, so i gave it one:
No title, so i gave it one:
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God’s Promises
God has not promised skies always blue,
Flower-strewn pathways all our lives through;
God has not promised sun without rain,
God has not promised skies always blue,
Flower-strewn pathways all our lives through;
God has not promised sun without rain,
Joy without sorrow, peace without pain.
But God has promised
But God has promised
Strength for the day,
Rest for the labour,
Light for the way,
Grace for the trials,
Help from above,
Unfailing sympathy,
Undying love…
Rest for the labour,
Light for the way,
Grace for the trials,
Help from above,
Unfailing sympathy,
Undying love…
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How true! :-P nothing much, just wanna share!
Monday, July 10, 2006
Just some tots...
Haven blogged for a long time... just felt like blogging today... let's see if i can finish in a few minutes...
This morning, I was feeling rather stoned& confused. Didnt see a woman pushing a pram trying to ask me to move aside @ the bus stop... another passerby had to tap me on the shoulder... showed how stoned i was.... then later on the bus, just had a sudden flash of these words through my mind:
"Stunned.
Didnt know why i did that, but i did it...
How can I hope to help others when i cant even help myself?
Ashamed.
The inside was rotten...
Now even the outside is starting to rot
Like how my cheese turned blue...
Feel,
Like an apple crumble now."
But much later, while @ AH... i was suddenly awakened by the person I was trying to help... He shared his experiences with me... and i was encouraged greatly.. for he, a person suffering so much physically, had so much faith & conviction... nvr has he given up in seeking God, though he is ashamed of his deeds... "now i pray just thanking... till one day, when the door opens already, i can then communicate with Him"
he didnt know how much this line meant to the one he was talking to... it showed the resilience, the persistence of this person... how strong was his want to change, to seek Him.
He has encouraged this backslider to regain the confidence, to regain tt hunger for Him... I have no suffering & is in fact so blessed... yet i do not even have tt fighting spirit...
N then, went back home n saw DXK's email... a short read, yet succintly hit the note in my heart... yes! I am not to give up!
am now encouraged! No matter what happened, His Love is constant! He is waiting for us to change! N i shld not give up SEEKING, FERRETING for HIM!
God is in control!
Am really thankful & fortunate.... whenever I fall again, there's alw so many others ard me to try to bring me back on track...
Am really thankful!
Still got lots to blog abt... but yups tink me no time lah haha... these few weeks so many things happen... so much tt i wanna say but then cos alw feel b lazy n nvr say le
Feel like a recharged battery now, cept it is bed time!!!
This morning, I was feeling rather stoned& confused. Didnt see a woman pushing a pram trying to ask me to move aside @ the bus stop... another passerby had to tap me on the shoulder... showed how stoned i was.... then later on the bus, just had a sudden flash of these words through my mind:
"Stunned.
Didnt know why i did that, but i did it...
How can I hope to help others when i cant even help myself?
Ashamed.
The inside was rotten...
Now even the outside is starting to rot
Like how my cheese turned blue...
Feel,
Like an apple crumble now."
But much later, while @ AH... i was suddenly awakened by the person I was trying to help... He shared his experiences with me... and i was encouraged greatly.. for he, a person suffering so much physically, had so much faith & conviction... nvr has he given up in seeking God, though he is ashamed of his deeds... "now i pray just thanking... till one day, when the door opens already, i can then communicate with Him"
he didnt know how much this line meant to the one he was talking to... it showed the resilience, the persistence of this person... how strong was his want to change, to seek Him.
He has encouraged this backslider to regain the confidence, to regain tt hunger for Him... I have no suffering & is in fact so blessed... yet i do not even have tt fighting spirit...
N then, went back home n saw DXK's email... a short read, yet succintly hit the note in my heart... yes! I am not to give up!
am now encouraged! No matter what happened, His Love is constant! He is waiting for us to change! N i shld not give up SEEKING, FERRETING for HIM!
God is in control!
Am really thankful & fortunate.... whenever I fall again, there's alw so many others ard me to try to bring me back on track...
Am really thankful!
Still got lots to blog abt... but yups tink me no time lah haha... these few weeks so many things happen... so much tt i wanna say but then cos alw feel b lazy n nvr say le
Feel like a recharged battery now, cept it is bed time!!!
Sunday, May 21, 2006
:-P
Read WB's blog...
well tt's exactly how I felt initially. Prayed to the Lord, n this was what He told me, "Yes, I know you did this with a clear conscience, and so I have kept you from sinning against me." Gen20:6. Wow! As long as we do things with a clear conscience, God will take care of the rest. He will keep you from sinning... No matter what happens, be it a misunderstanding or wat...
N yup, prayed about it earlier today too... n He told me the same thing... then when i got bored of studying... browsed the Net n read WB's blog... felt that He's speaking through WB! WB thanks alot!!!!! hahaha :-P
__________________
Sent this to a friend earlier this week... reflected how i felt a few weeks ago...
"When I am down and O my soul so weary
When troubles come and my heart burdened be
Then I am still and wait here in the silence
Until You come and sit awhile with me
You raise me up so I can stand on mountains
You raise me up to walk on stromy seas
And I am strong when I am on Your shoulders
You raise me up to more than I can be
There is no life no life without its hunger
Each restless heart beats so imperfetly
But when You come and I am filled with wonder
Sometimes I think I glimpse eternity."
______________________________
and the following is to share with WB!!!!
"This is no time for fear
This is a time for faith and determinnation
Don't lose the vision here carried away by the motion
Hold on to all that you hide in your heart
There is one thing that has always been true
It holds the world together
God is in control
We believe that His children will not be forsaken
God is in control
We will choose to remember and never be shaken
there is no power above or beside Him we know!
He will never let you down!
and He is still the loving Father
Watching over you and me"
:-P
.............back to mugging...........
well tt's exactly how I felt initially. Prayed to the Lord, n this was what He told me, "Yes, I know you did this with a clear conscience, and so I have kept you from sinning against me." Gen20:6. Wow! As long as we do things with a clear conscience, God will take care of the rest. He will keep you from sinning... No matter what happens, be it a misunderstanding or wat...
N yup, prayed about it earlier today too... n He told me the same thing... then when i got bored of studying... browsed the Net n read WB's blog... felt that He's speaking through WB! WB thanks alot!!!!! hahaha :-P
__________________
Sent this to a friend earlier this week... reflected how i felt a few weeks ago...
"When I am down and O my soul so weary
When troubles come and my heart burdened be
Then I am still and wait here in the silence
Until You come and sit awhile with me
You raise me up so I can stand on mountains
You raise me up to walk on stromy seas
And I am strong when I am on Your shoulders
You raise me up to more than I can be
There is no life no life without its hunger
Each restless heart beats so imperfetly
But when You come and I am filled with wonder
Sometimes I think I glimpse eternity."
______________________________
and the following is to share with WB!!!!
"This is no time for fear
This is a time for faith and determinnation
Don't lose the vision here carried away by the motion
Hold on to all that you hide in your heart
There is one thing that has always been true
It holds the world together
God is in control
We believe that His children will not be forsaken
God is in control
We will choose to remember and never be shaken
there is no power above or beside Him we know!
He will never let you down!
and He is still the loving Father
Watching over you and me"
:-P
.............back to mugging...........
Wednesday, April 05, 2006
HmMm...
Haha, guess whenever i blog, it'll mean that i've just finished a CA or exam! yupz here i am again!
Hmmm.. finally the exams are over... However, the uplifting feeling is still not there yet... its unlike other times, when i heave a sigh of relief at the end of everything. Probably cos i didnt study hard enough? Felt less stress this time... nvr really felt urgency even though the exam was near-ended up studying very slowly... not really the best effort, but am quite ok with the outcome... phew!
yupz yupz at least im sure i'd b heading towards the clinics le!!! haha so excited!!! but hope i'd b a steady doc lah! wont poke ppl wrongly!!! haha etc etc etc just wanna be a good doc!!! haha
m watching TV!!! long time nvr watch my serials le. juz like mugging... mug 3 plus hrs of TV le wahahaha... tyired le but still refuse to go slp...
too tired to write anything of good sense... haha kk shall log off!
Hmmm.. finally the exams are over... However, the uplifting feeling is still not there yet... its unlike other times, when i heave a sigh of relief at the end of everything. Probably cos i didnt study hard enough? Felt less stress this time... nvr really felt urgency even though the exam was near-ended up studying very slowly... not really the best effort, but am quite ok with the outcome... phew!
yupz yupz at least im sure i'd b heading towards the clinics le!!! haha so excited!!! but hope i'd b a steady doc lah! wont poke ppl wrongly!!! haha etc etc etc just wanna be a good doc!!! haha
m watching TV!!! long time nvr watch my serials le. juz like mugging... mug 3 plus hrs of TV le wahahaha... tyired le but still refuse to go slp...
too tired to write anything of good sense... haha kk shall log off!
Monday, March 13, 2006
FiNaLly back to BLoGgiNg again
再一次看黄城，
有同样的感动。
再体会那单纯，
再回味那赤心。
一切历历在目，
仿佛没离开过。
世界不停转动，
心仍逗留那刻。
它 —— 已是个烙印。。。
Have not blogged for a long time. Always couldnt really sit down and sort out my thoughts. Always needed a quiet nite when im quite awake... but it nvr happened... had many things to blog on several occasions, but it all fizzled out by the mugging and little sleep that i had...
shall try to recall and blog out several thoughts. impromptu... just wateva comes to my mind
There You'll Be..
hmmm... am still searching... am still trying to reinforce my Faith.
God, thank you for everything...
LIFE
life in itself is an intrinsically complex artwork. No one can comprehend, no one can predict. It is this tt makes life interesting and beautiful. It is this tt makes it so enigmatic and mysterious. It is this tt makes it so colourful and not boring.
there are no right or wrong choices in life. It all depends on how one react upon it and how one take the choices. LIfe is too short to have room for regrets, hence live it to the fullest and enjoy every single moment!
有同样的感动。
再体会那单纯，
再回味那赤心。
一切历历在目，
仿佛没离开过。
世界不停转动，
心仍逗留那刻。
它 —— 已是个烙印。。。
_________________
Have not blogged for a long time. Always couldnt really sit down and sort out my thoughts. Always needed a quiet nite when im quite awake... but it nvr happened... had many things to blog on several occasions, but it all fizzled out by the mugging and little sleep that i had...
shall try to recall and blog out several thoughts. impromptu... just wateva comes to my mind
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PEOPLE
guess time is really a great filter.
The previous few weeks, i saw many different ppl in sch. It is really interesting how sometimes when u noe tt person, but u try to smile and greet em, they react as if they hav not known u at all.
Then there are those whom you dont recall knowing, smiling and waving at you. (well tink its amusing tt they hav recognised the wrong person!) Friends become strangers, and strangers becoming friends. It is sad... that people whom you once could chat with effortlessly, now become people whom u find difficult to even start a conversation. It often end up with a deafening silence, a helpless smile and a pair of fleeting eyes...
lament... seems to be the only thing tt i can do...
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MEMORIES
guess its the gemini trait... to hav a great sense of nostalgia, even after a long time...
really cherish all the memories i have... good or bad... cos they represent each n every phase of life, reminding me constantly tt i hav a varied and interesting life... that all has been exciting so far, and more excitement and challenges await.
always wanted to write down wateva i think, wateva i do, wateva ppl say... cos each on its own at each point in time, is unique. Like to take pictures. Even more, LOVE to take videos - for it is a real life representation. Always hoped i can put a video cam at the angle of my eyes, so tt i can record everything tt i c, hear, do. and also wat others are doing. den store all these memories and review them when i am free... for each memory will not present itself again. Even if u repeat the same thing with the same ppl, the feeling will just be different.
But many a times, it may because im lazy or too busy to record... end up alw regretting not putting things into video...
i wish to hold on, but i know, i hav to learn to let go......
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LOVE
Hmmm... many ppl ard me are getting attached... haha dun ask me when it's my turn, cos i really dunno. Have not met a person whom i can share my life... in my view, its "love can be just one time, and last for a lifetime" sounds familiar? too cliche? well, tink tt's my firm belief. tt's y im alw hesitant.
my tuition kid was sharing his story tt day... well other than his being a childish infatuation, there are certain things which i can learn from, cos frm wat i said to him, i began to understand the true meaning of love...
but not thinking too much about it, cos believe God will take care of it. If im supposed to be without tt special someone, so be it... not fretting, and definitely not ferreting at this point in time... i just wanna b a good doctor...
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IDEALS
like many other young teens, i've had my share of ambitions and ideals. Had been working hard towards it ever since i set em. Wateva i did in the past - be it CCAs or choice of subjects - have alw been targeted at attaining my goal. but guess for the first time in my life, this motivation and drive have gone... for im not even sure if i can last, not even sure of the steps i hav to take to attain my dream of being a paediatrician. I can alw plan steps and so on, but guess these after many yrs of pushing myself ahead, all the stress has led to me slowing down my thinking and planning. Cos theres a sense of lethargy... i know exactly the steps to take, but though the spirit is willing, the flesh is weak... i will just continue to try to pass at every stage of the MBBS, before looking forward into the future.
for the first time i really dunno where i m headed to
i just pray for His guidance.
_______________________
hmmm... am still searching... am still trying to reinforce my Faith.
God, thank you for everything...
_______________________
LIFE
life in itself is an intrinsically complex artwork. No one can comprehend, no one can predict. It is this tt makes life interesting and beautiful. It is this tt makes it so enigmatic and mysterious. It is this tt makes it so colourful and not boring.
there are no right or wrong choices in life. It all depends on how one react upon it and how one take the choices. LIfe is too short to have room for regrets, hence live it to the fullest and enjoy every single moment!
_______________________
juz some random ramblings...
need to slp le... can still write, and am not tired... but guess i need to get into bed already...
the new day is full of promises
i wish you all the best! Enjoy your day!!! each day is special!
Sunday, February 26, 2006
StoNeD, StUnNed, or What???
There is no excuse. I am simply too appalled at my own behaviour. I could not believe what happened.
Was walking home from celebrating yet another 21st birthday (utterly tired actually, but this is not an excuse), at the zebra crossing, there was a man pushing a wheelchair (of cos with another man sitting on it) and just before they crossed the road, the front wheel brokedown (phew luckily it was not on the road).
here's it
i wanted to help, but the appalling thing was, i DIDN'T KNOW HOW TO!!!!! I just stoned there. I just stood there, wanting to help, but didnt noe how. Many tots ran thru... there was only an intention formulated by the cortex saying "help help help" but there was NO INSTRUCTION saying, "go do this, go do that." i dunno why, it just didnt come. He had difficulty pushing the wheelchair n until now i still dunno wat i shld hav done. The wheelchair was spoilt. but i didnt noe how to deal with a spoilt wheelchair with a person sitting on it.... Is all the mugging making me STUPID????? wat a joke. I took medicine up to HELP ppl. YET, halfway through, after 2 years of studying, i realise i have lost the ability to help. It is the greatest joke of the century. Think u'd hav been shocked if u saw my reaction. Cos i really juz stoned there. I AM UTTERLY ASHAMED OF MYSELF.
i only managed a meek (in chinese) "the front wheel is spoilt" den the person continued desperately trying to push the wheelchair. but its obvious it was not budging n i really didnt noe how to react. cos even if i push it cant move. but i just could not leave them there. So i just stood beside the person.
Also, many thoughts ran thru my mind. "Should I carry the chair? Should I help to push? Should I try to fix the wheel?" etc etc in my mind all in tt few seconds. I was confused. I wanted to help, but couldnt articulate. I think I AM DUMB.
Then, the person on the wheelchair tried to stand up. It dawned upon me suddenly tt he wasn't fully paralysed. but then, he was having difficulty standing up, cos he was trying to push himself up, one hand on the wheelchair handle, another on tt kinda metal walker that support both hands... again i didnt noe how to react... "how do i hold him? if i hold one hand i might push him or he might lose his grip on the stable wheelchair/walker... Is he trying to stand up? Is he trying to adjust? wat does he want to do? does he want to cross the road without the wheelchair?"
in the end he tried to walk across, both hands on the walker (phew, he managed to stand up without falling) den his fren ask him to sit back down on the broken wheelchair.... i was utterly confused, unable to comprehend all these tt happened within 30seconds. tink i am too stupid, reaction too slow... all i could do was put a hand up to try to signal to the car to wait.... THAT WAS ALL I DID. wow how constructive... goodness....
am i really stupid? maimed n paralysed n trapped by all the mugging? n i seem to b mugging wrongly too.... am i to be a regurgitating (albeit erroneous, cos i really cant remember many many things) stone that is incapable of even churning out algorithms like a computer???
hard to accept, but i really cant believe myself even. I was so ashamed, n i really needed to call someone to talk to.... but i could think of no one.... another sudden realisation.... tink i m just a breathing piece of rock, faceless, mindless, motionless, standing alone facing an ultimate stupidity that even computers can solve via their programming. Yet, me, a so called medical student... could do nothing...
At tt point of time after i crossed the road, i was stunned n terribly ashamed... dunno y.... i knew i just could not leave them there like that and had to help but yet i uselessly stood beside them.
i cant really explain wats happening to me. inhibition? stupidity? fatigue? typical sporean attitude? sianed?
but these are simply not excuses...
i dun tink i can forgive myself...
n dun tink i can ever finish mugging... at a rate of 3 lectures / day.... tink i m really stupid... sth is wrong with my brain...
God, please save this stone here...
hai...
Was walking home from celebrating yet another 21st birthday (utterly tired actually, but this is not an excuse), at the zebra crossing, there was a man pushing a wheelchair (of cos with another man sitting on it) and just before they crossed the road, the front wheel brokedown (phew luckily it was not on the road).
here's it
i wanted to help, but the appalling thing was, i DIDN'T KNOW HOW TO!!!!! I just stoned there. I just stood there, wanting to help, but didnt noe how. Many tots ran thru... there was only an intention formulated by the cortex saying "help help help" but there was NO INSTRUCTION saying, "go do this, go do that." i dunno why, it just didnt come. He had difficulty pushing the wheelchair n until now i still dunno wat i shld hav done. The wheelchair was spoilt. but i didnt noe how to deal with a spoilt wheelchair with a person sitting on it.... Is all the mugging making me STUPID????? wat a joke. I took medicine up to HELP ppl. YET, halfway through, after 2 years of studying, i realise i have lost the ability to help. It is the greatest joke of the century. Think u'd hav been shocked if u saw my reaction. Cos i really juz stoned there. I AM UTTERLY ASHAMED OF MYSELF.
i only managed a meek (in chinese) "the front wheel is spoilt" den the person continued desperately trying to push the wheelchair. but its obvious it was not budging n i really didnt noe how to react. cos even if i push it cant move. but i just could not leave them there. So i just stood beside the person.
Also, many thoughts ran thru my mind. "Should I carry the chair? Should I help to push? Should I try to fix the wheel?" etc etc in my mind all in tt few seconds. I was confused. I wanted to help, but couldnt articulate. I think I AM DUMB.
Then, the person on the wheelchair tried to stand up. It dawned upon me suddenly tt he wasn't fully paralysed. but then, he was having difficulty standing up, cos he was trying to push himself up, one hand on the wheelchair handle, another on tt kinda metal walker that support both hands... again i didnt noe how to react... "how do i hold him? if i hold one hand i might push him or he might lose his grip on the stable wheelchair/walker... Is he trying to stand up? Is he trying to adjust? wat does he want to do? does he want to cross the road without the wheelchair?"
in the end he tried to walk across, both hands on the walker (phew, he managed to stand up without falling) den his fren ask him to sit back down on the broken wheelchair.... i was utterly confused, unable to comprehend all these tt happened within 30seconds. tink i am too stupid, reaction too slow... all i could do was put a hand up to try to signal to the car to wait.... THAT WAS ALL I DID. wow how constructive... goodness....
am i really stupid? maimed n paralysed n trapped by all the mugging? n i seem to b mugging wrongly too.... am i to be a regurgitating (albeit erroneous, cos i really cant remember many many things) stone that is incapable of even churning out algorithms like a computer???
hard to accept, but i really cant believe myself even. I was so ashamed, n i really needed to call someone to talk to.... but i could think of no one.... another sudden realisation.... tink i m just a breathing piece of rock, faceless, mindless, motionless, standing alone facing an ultimate stupidity that even computers can solve via their programming. Yet, me, a so called medical student... could do nothing...
At tt point of time after i crossed the road, i was stunned n terribly ashamed... dunno y.... i knew i just could not leave them there like that and had to help but yet i uselessly stood beside them.
i cant really explain wats happening to me. inhibition? stupidity? fatigue? typical sporean attitude? sianed?
but these are simply not excuses...
i dun tink i can forgive myself...
n dun tink i can ever finish mugging... at a rate of 3 lectures / day.... tink i m really stupid... sth is wrong with my brain...
God, please save this stone here...
hai...
Sunday, January 15, 2006
Busy weekend... starting friday
LOL... tink this weekend has been a roller coaster ride for me! Was so busy meeting ppl tt i only slept 5 hrs for 2 consecutive days. n yupz... didnt want to blog, cos was very tired, but tot it'd b good to blog down these memorable happenings this weekend. Cos whenever i told myself i'd blog it later, i'd just conveniently forget, or be too lazy to update it haha!
FRIDAY
it was a tiring friday, as i was busy the previous nite making the present for my aunt, whose birthday was on friday (the 13th, well, it seems everything went well... not much significance though). went to sch abit blur blur, but still alert enuf to realise tt they were releasing one of the CA results! well i did ok, though not as well as everyone else... den wanted to hav a insignificant fri afternoon, until i got a call n found tt there was a clinical trial at NUH, which needed research participants. haha i wasn't interested, until my ears pricked at tt $50 reimbursement! haha so yupz went to the clinic to get 8 injections n 16 skin pricks, (allergy testing for allergic rhinitis) n yupz my wallet was fatter. haha. though the pricks itched!!!!
later went to celebrate my aunt's bday at a vegetarian restaurant... well the food was ok lah, cos every yr u eat the same thing @ e same time of the yr... not tt interesting lahz haha but it was a good get-together for the family. plus, this is the first time since my grandma fractured her leg tt she came outta the hse without her wheelchair. everything was perfect till the flaggin of the taxi. cos my grandma couldnt walk far, so we had to hail a taxi near the restaurant, but there was a bus stop w many buses n double yellow line... well u can imagine, esp when the whole road seems congested. my aunt went further up the road to hail the taxi n ask the driver pick up my grandma (n other aunts) at tt point but the driver overshot!! so he had to REVERSE... oh my... but there was a big bus n lotsa cars behind. v v dangerous. so he could only reverse like 5 m, n my grandma had to struggle the remaining 5m with her metal walking frame. the bus looked threatening, for the driver seemed rather impatient, plus the many cars ard.... precarious. yet my grandma couldnt walk any faster. heaved a sigh of relief when she finally got on the cab.
den went to buy webcam for my fren's 21st bday at sim lim. so ex!!! met up w my sec 4 frens (LHY n PSH aka SHIT haha), talked alot, bought the webcam with the usual bickering n finally settled for some ice dessert at ICE MONSTER, a taiwanese like ice cafe... really shiok! haha esp tt mixed fruit ice dessert n the watermelon+lemon+orange juice tt was in the right proportions! went home later n watched TV till 2...
Saturday
Tiring! woke up at 7. did some housework n cleaned the house... cos 2 monkeys staying over later haha. den rushed off to meet my 3 BMT frens! haha really long time did not meet em. All 3 of them are gg to university of new south wales to study medicine!!! haha n believed it was really very fortunate of them, cos i was the one who found out n brought em tog to meet, so tt at least they noe they'd hav classmates tt they already noe!!! haha spoke to em alot abt medicine, n i was also intrigued n got all excited about their study in Australia... how nice if i was gg together with em. v fun!!! hmm well, shld stop day dreaming lahz haha cos 1) really fortunate to get into nus med, n 2) i really hav no $$$ to spend (eh they were telling me it costs up to S$500,000 for their fees n living expenses there. wow!) n it was really good... reminisced the past n of cos, really nice to meet up with em... all my buddies!
den later went to celebrate UY's bday. hmmm... sometimes really get tired of such meetings, esp when it is such a pain to try to organise it... some more the organisation alw falls on my shoulders. the so called organiser this time was rather CMI lahz n i had to try salvage.... well tink is cos the person was rather unwilling to do it... everythin was rather last min, n even the buying present he turned up late. yupz but qt happy tt we bought him rather nice gifts lahz.... a choker with his name engraved, a cool sunglass (though i noe he wanted a watch, but was too sure if he still has/hasnt gotten one) n well cos of this there was abit of disagreement! oh well... still glad tt he liked his present! n bought a "mini mini" cake. loooks nice!
eh the so called organiser wanted to give a surprise last min n gave all the funny excuses n talk tt was like so duh... making it more (!!-_-) den ever, no more surprises... tink UY was more tired den happy... anw... yah had dinner @ ichiban n in total i spent $47 tt day juz for treating him dinner n present haha so ex.... really no $$ liaoz... all my sacrifice in pricking myself with 24 pricks on fri has gone down the drain... haiz
den went home feeling v v v v v v tired... mopped the floor, ate some durian n watched some TV... before gg on to meet the 2 monkeys (FCW n PJH) at kallang mrt! hmmm but on the way damn suay lorz, stepped on SHIT SHIT SHIT!!!! so smeelly! ( haha later i went home n threw away the sandals, cos it was old anw... wanted to throw long ago... a convenient excuse to materialise it!) met monkey 1 FCW @ kallang mac aft his stef sun's concert n he was really exceptionally high. still can jump abt despite leg kena "KIAP" by the bus door haha
den later went over to aljunied mrt to fetch PJH, the number 2 monkey. den we 3 marched on to my hse! haha actually it was qt fun to hav em lahz... i was qt entertained too... cept was qt tired, but didnt slp well... k so i got to slp only 5+ hrs again lorz...
SUNDAY
Yay!!! we won the qualifying round of the "UNIQUELY SINGAPORE AMAZING RACE" haha. tt was y the 2 monkeys stayed over... cos they wanted to check the online clues immed n rush to it!!! haha well the 3rd monkey came over n our team, VIVA LAH VISTA, is finally complete n ready to go!!! haha the starting was abit shaky, cos the clues were given late ( n well the 3 monkeys screamed in excitement once they saw it appearing on the screen) n oso my PRINTER BROKE DOWN when we tired to print out the clues! haha luckily i hav another old printer at home lorz... haha but yupz this shaky start didnt put us down. in fact, we managed to overcome it!!
den rushed to our first destination THE BATTLE BOX @ fort canning park (ps, thanks jialin! for she was our resource person whom we contacted to help us find ans etc! haha) by taxi n haha was there too early. it starts only at 10. waited. picked the tickets n convinced the lady tt we'd b coming later for the show n den RAN. all the way to the nxt station
TRADITIONAL BUMBOAT RIDE, passing by MICA bldg etc... all the way to the tic booth along the spore river! haha den took a very refreshing n relaxing n cool ride to the esplanade, where we ran on to our next station, THE SUNTEC SUMMIT!!!
haha had a breathtaking panoramic view of the landscape n buildings of singapore atop TOWER 4 of SUNTEC CITY!!!! i love singapore!!! its so nice!!! wow everything was so fun!!! only thing was tt i forgot to bring the cam in the midst of the troublesome printing. did a whooosh there ( haha really need to thank the guide cum tic seller, cos the nxt trip was supposed to b 1 hr later but she took us up herself on the spot, so tt we didnt hav to wait haha some more give us discount though she didnt noe whether she was suppose to give haha)
den RAN again to BUGIS JUNCTION where the qualifying race ends, but we hav 2 find their booth. had a feeling it was @ the fountain. well it really is. haha glad tt we made it FIRST!!!! haha any later other grps would hav displaced us it was a close fight!!! (cos 5 min later the 2nd team appeared, plus 3rd team following close behind)
had a fulfillin (but damn fattening... i needa exercise!) lunch a-la-carte buffet at pearl river palace restaurant @ suntec city (aft abt nearly 45 min of deliberation on where to go for lunch haha the usual bickering lahz) . it was really good!!! fd was good, cept the price haha but THANK YOU CHEK WUN!!! for the treat! hahaha though it was a belated birthday treat, but nvrtheless...
made our way back to battle box... made me realise how fortunate i m... no war no nothing. only pure mugging. no torture, no sufferings of war, no famine etc.... really made me cherish wat i hav. n immense respect for those ppl who defended singapore in the WWII. really glad everything is as wat it is now... phew!!!!
yupz v v v tired.... watched tuxedo n more tv, n den decided to blog.... hmmm nearly typed for an hr liaoz... v tired... promised myself to slp early, but yupz i alw nvr keep promises to myself... haiz... hope tml will b a better day!!!
START MUGGING!!!!!
FRIDAY
it was a tiring friday, as i was busy the previous nite making the present for my aunt, whose birthday was on friday (the 13th, well, it seems everything went well... not much significance though). went to sch abit blur blur, but still alert enuf to realise tt they were releasing one of the CA results! well i did ok, though not as well as everyone else... den wanted to hav a insignificant fri afternoon, until i got a call n found tt there was a clinical trial at NUH, which needed research participants. haha i wasn't interested, until my ears pricked at tt $50 reimbursement! haha so yupz went to the clinic to get 8 injections n 16 skin pricks, (allergy testing for allergic rhinitis) n yupz my wallet was fatter. haha. though the pricks itched!!!!
later went to celebrate my aunt's bday at a vegetarian restaurant... well the food was ok lah, cos every yr u eat the same thing @ e same time of the yr... not tt interesting lahz haha but it was a good get-together for the family. plus, this is the first time since my grandma fractured her leg tt she came outta the hse without her wheelchair. everything was perfect till the flaggin of the taxi. cos my grandma couldnt walk far, so we had to hail a taxi near the restaurant, but there was a bus stop w many buses n double yellow line... well u can imagine, esp when the whole road seems congested. my aunt went further up the road to hail the taxi n ask the driver pick up my grandma (n other aunts) at tt point but the driver overshot!! so he had to REVERSE... oh my... but there was a big bus n lotsa cars behind. v v dangerous. so he could only reverse like 5 m, n my grandma had to struggle the remaining 5m with her metal walking frame. the bus looked threatening, for the driver seemed rather impatient, plus the many cars ard.... precarious. yet my grandma couldnt walk any faster. heaved a sigh of relief when she finally got on the cab.
den went to buy webcam for my fren's 21st bday at sim lim. so ex!!! met up w my sec 4 frens (LHY n PSH aka SHIT haha), talked alot, bought the webcam with the usual bickering n finally settled for some ice dessert at ICE MONSTER, a taiwanese like ice cafe... really shiok! haha esp tt mixed fruit ice dessert n the watermelon+lemon+orange juice tt was in the right proportions! went home later n watched TV till 2...
Saturday
Tiring! woke up at 7. did some housework n cleaned the house... cos 2 monkeys staying over later haha. den rushed off to meet my 3 BMT frens! haha really long time did not meet em. All 3 of them are gg to university of new south wales to study medicine!!! haha n believed it was really very fortunate of them, cos i was the one who found out n brought em tog to meet, so tt at least they noe they'd hav classmates tt they already noe!!! haha spoke to em alot abt medicine, n i was also intrigued n got all excited about their study in Australia... how nice if i was gg together with em. v fun!!! hmm well, shld stop day dreaming lahz haha cos 1) really fortunate to get into nus med, n 2) i really hav no $$$ to spend (eh they were telling me it costs up to S$500,000 for their fees n living expenses there. wow!) n it was really good... reminisced the past n of cos, really nice to meet up with em... all my buddies!
den later went to celebrate UY's bday. hmmm... sometimes really get tired of such meetings, esp when it is such a pain to try to organise it... some more the organisation alw falls on my shoulders. the so called organiser this time was rather CMI lahz n i had to try salvage.... well tink is cos the person was rather unwilling to do it... everythin was rather last min, n even the buying present he turned up late. yupz but qt happy tt we bought him rather nice gifts lahz.... a choker with his name engraved, a cool sunglass (though i noe he wanted a watch, but was too sure if he still has/hasnt gotten one) n well cos of this there was abit of disagreement! oh well... still glad tt he liked his present! n bought a "mini mini" cake. loooks nice!
eh the so called organiser wanted to give a surprise last min n gave all the funny excuses n talk tt was like so duh... making it more (!!-_-) den ever, no more surprises... tink UY was more tired den happy... anw... yah had dinner @ ichiban n in total i spent $47 tt day juz for treating him dinner n present haha so ex.... really no $$ liaoz... all my sacrifice in pricking myself with 24 pricks on fri has gone down the drain... haiz
den went home feeling v v v v v v tired... mopped the floor, ate some durian n watched some TV... before gg on to meet the 2 monkeys (FCW n PJH) at kallang mrt! hmmm but on the way damn suay lorz, stepped on SHIT SHIT SHIT!!!! so smeelly! ( haha later i went home n threw away the sandals, cos it was old anw... wanted to throw long ago... a convenient excuse to materialise it!) met monkey 1 FCW @ kallang mac aft his stef sun's concert n he was really exceptionally high. still can jump abt despite leg kena "KIAP" by the bus door haha
den later went over to aljunied mrt to fetch PJH, the number 2 monkey. den we 3 marched on to my hse! haha actually it was qt fun to hav em lahz... i was qt entertained too... cept was qt tired, but didnt slp well... k so i got to slp only 5+ hrs again lorz...
SUNDAY
Yay!!! we won the qualifying round of the "UNIQUELY SINGAPORE AMAZING RACE" haha. tt was y the 2 monkeys stayed over... cos they wanted to check the online clues immed n rush to it!!! haha well the 3rd monkey came over n our team, VIVA LAH VISTA, is finally complete n ready to go!!! haha the starting was abit shaky, cos the clues were given late ( n well the 3 monkeys screamed in excitement once they saw it appearing on the screen) n oso my PRINTER BROKE DOWN when we tired to print out the clues! haha luckily i hav another old printer at home lorz... haha but yupz this shaky start didnt put us down. in fact, we managed to overcome it!!
den rushed to our first destination THE BATTLE BOX @ fort canning park (ps, thanks jialin! for she was our resource person whom we contacted to help us find ans etc! haha) by taxi n haha was there too early. it starts only at 10. waited. picked the tickets n convinced the lady tt we'd b coming later for the show n den RAN. all the way to the nxt station
TRADITIONAL BUMBOAT RIDE, passing by MICA bldg etc... all the way to the tic booth along the spore river! haha den took a very refreshing n relaxing n cool ride to the esplanade, where we ran on to our next station, THE SUNTEC SUMMIT!!!
haha had a breathtaking panoramic view of the landscape n buildings of singapore atop TOWER 4 of SUNTEC CITY!!!! i love singapore!!! its so nice!!! wow everything was so fun!!! only thing was tt i forgot to bring the cam in the midst of the troublesome printing. did a whooosh there ( haha really need to thank the guide cum tic seller, cos the nxt trip was supposed to b 1 hr later but she took us up herself on the spot, so tt we didnt hav to wait haha some more give us discount though she didnt noe whether she was suppose to give haha)
den RAN again to BUGIS JUNCTION where the qualifying race ends, but we hav 2 find their booth. had a feeling it was @ the fountain. well it really is. haha glad tt we made it FIRST!!!! haha any later other grps would hav displaced us it was a close fight!!! (cos 5 min later the 2nd team appeared, plus 3rd team following close behind)
had a fulfillin (but damn fattening... i needa exercise!) lunch a-la-carte buffet at pearl river palace restaurant @ suntec city (aft abt nearly 45 min of deliberation on where to go for lunch haha the usual bickering lahz) . it was really good!!! fd was good, cept the price haha but THANK YOU CHEK WUN!!! for the treat! hahaha though it was a belated birthday treat, but nvrtheless...
made our way back to battle box... made me realise how fortunate i m... no war no nothing. only pure mugging. no torture, no sufferings of war, no famine etc.... really made me cherish wat i hav. n immense respect for those ppl who defended singapore in the WWII. really glad everything is as wat it is now... phew!!!!
yupz v v v tired.... watched tuxedo n more tv, n den decided to blog.... hmmm nearly typed for an hr liaoz... v tired... promised myself to slp early, but yupz i alw nvr keep promises to myself... haiz... hope tml will b a better day!!!
START MUGGING!!!!!
Wednesday, January 04, 2006
Water water water!!! haha
Wow today was really a watery day! if u're guessing its cos of the rain, well nope. in fact, for the first time after 3-4 days, there was great sun. (well as usual poor med student hav to be couped in the house to stardee, so nothing great abt tt sun) haha but something unusual happened!
it all happened when my brother took a shower in the afternoon n realised that the water flow from the tap was getting smaller n smaller. he merely complained to my mum (note... he didnt realise sth was wrong) haha it was my mum, the experienced lady who sensed something was wrong. immediately after she cooked the dinner, i was summoned to bathe! n den to start filling water into bottles. we started to boil alot of water, to fill all the containers we had for boiled water. (hey albeit the water flow getting smaller every second) then my mum started to say," let's collect water for washing n etc" haha but i argued tt drinking water was more important, so we should continue to fill drinking water.
haha den while we were still arguing n the water was trickling down the container i put there, suddenly we heard the water sounds become very loud. There was a loud gush of water into the container, no more trickling! but it was a big splash of DIRTY, BROWN WATER!!!!!!
hahaha well, i quickly closed the tap, but brown water was splattered everywhere! hahaha den later when we flushed the toilet, everything turned brown. No hahaha its not diarrhoea... its the water
guess wat happened???
wats the cause???
haha only my mum expected it. we all got a shock.... haiz the PUB shld hav sent out notice or warning tt they were gg to clean the water tanks mah.... haiz.... imagine if u're working den only return hse at nite, when u soap urself n open the tap, a rushing gush of brown water pours over u!!!! haiz n no other water supply... wat can u do???? hahahaha some more cos they washing the tank, so the water pressure very high. once u turn on the tap abit, alr like got water spurt liddat... wah the first time i opened i got a shock!
luckily now everything ok liaoz
taught me to cherish the clean water we all have... n how vulnerable we all are without clean water... imagine if it was infected with vancomycin resistant legionella n mycobacterium.... faint....
well yes... tt's telling me to go back to my BOOKS!!!!
y y y do i hav hav hav CA CA CA on on on the the the first first first day day day of sch!!!!! haiz...
all the best to me!
it all happened when my brother took a shower in the afternoon n realised that the water flow from the tap was getting smaller n smaller. he merely complained to my mum (note... he didnt realise sth was wrong) haha it was my mum, the experienced lady who sensed something was wrong. immediately after she cooked the dinner, i was summoned to bathe! n den to start filling water into bottles. we started to boil alot of water, to fill all the containers we had for boiled water. (hey albeit the water flow getting smaller every second) then my mum started to say," let's collect water for washing n etc" haha but i argued tt drinking water was more important, so we should continue to fill drinking water.
haha den while we were still arguing n the water was trickling down the container i put there, suddenly we heard the water sounds become very loud. There was a loud gush of water into the container, no more trickling! but it was a big splash of DIRTY, BROWN WATER!!!!!!
hahaha well, i quickly closed the tap, but brown water was splattered everywhere! hahaha den later when we flushed the toilet, everything turned brown. No hahaha its not diarrhoea... its the water
guess wat happened???
wats the cause???
haha only my mum expected it. we all got a shock.... haiz the PUB shld hav sent out notice or warning tt they were gg to clean the water tanks mah.... haiz.... imagine if u're working den only return hse at nite, when u soap urself n open the tap, a rushing gush of brown water pours over u!!!! haiz n no other water supply... wat can u do???? hahahaha some more cos they washing the tank, so the water pressure very high. once u turn on the tap abit, alr like got water spurt liddat... wah the first time i opened i got a shock!
luckily now everything ok liaoz
taught me to cherish the clean water we all have... n how vulnerable we all are without clean water... imagine if it was infected with vancomycin resistant legionella n mycobacterium.... faint....
well yes... tt's telling me to go back to my BOOKS!!!!
y y y do i hav hav hav CA CA CA on on on the the the first first first day day day of sch!!!!! haiz...
all the best to me!
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