Sunday Reflections

A ferret.

Always searching, always finding.

How apt.

Today, I found another thing... did some thinking... here goes

Did my own quiet time, was initially unable to connect to the passage and understand it. In fact, there were alot of negative thoughts and reflections that made me feel that I have lost myself. The details of all this, of course, were written in my bible study book. I prayed, asking the Lord to guide me, and after which, I was able to connect to the passage. Read Psalms 143. And it fully matched how I was feeling.

I prayed, that I do not lose my fervour for the Lord, however, I was ashamed of myself and felt unworthy for Him. v1 "O Lord, hear my prayer, listen to my cry for mercy; in your faithfulness and righteousness come to my relief"
v4 "So my spirit grows faint within me; my heart within me is dismayed." like how i was feeling just now.

It also reflected how I was previously like, just before my M1 Final Exam, always longing for God, when I was still searching for the truth about Christianity... Had a strange longing for God, though I could not bring myself to believe Him at that point of time. I read His Word, really wanted to find more about Him: v5 "I remember the days of long ago; I meditated on all your workds and consider waht your hands have done." v6 "I spread out my hands to you; my soul thirsts for you like a parched land."

And just now, this was exactly how I felt and prayed: v7 "Answer me quickly, O Lord; my spirit faints with longing. Do not hide your face from me or I will be like those who go down to the pit".

And now i hope: v8-9 "Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you. Show me the way I should go, for to you I lift up my soul. Rescue me from my enemies, O Lord, for I hide myself in you."

And of course, I prayed that He would,
v10 "Teach me to do our will, for you are my God; may your good spirit lend me on level ground."

Hope and confidence were restored... the morning was no longer looming with dark clouds. the Light of Jesus has lighted up my gloomy day! :-P

No matter what the sin, the defeat, the discouragement, the false accusation, the overwhelming task, the tragedy, the sorrow... No matter how deep the darkness, no matter how terrible the failure, God wraps his arms of unfailing love around you once again today!

The beautiful sunset will give way to darkness, but the sun is never down. There is sunrise at the same moment in another place.... Just like God's unfailing Love... always there....

hmmm

Many thoughts, but just cant put it to words...
too lazy to type,
too lazy to tink of the right words.
Still ferreting... it's nvr over... n tt's what makes life enjoyable

Cant seem to finish mugging
But I will try!

Short term memory,
No choice mug again!

wadeva lahz haha

live life to the fullest! sMiLeZZZZzzzz

Countdown to Mid Autumn Festival

Mid Autumn Festival... One of my favourite festivals. Though many perceive I like it because of the mooncake, the fun playing with the lanterns, the wonderful story behind it etc... But NO. I like it because I enjoy the serenity of the night, lit up by a lantern. Signifying hope in the darkest hours, peace in the unfriendly darkness. It also signifies the reunion of families, reconcilation, and the joy of just being together. Everything comes a full circle... whatever u do, there will be a point of time where u'd go back to the start... this signifies a fresh start, just like the moon, always growing from a crescent to a full moon, and disappearing and reappearing... for millenia, it has continued in this manner. everything in this world, it seems, is a cycle.

I'm not sure why, but there's always this warm feeling when MAF comes... unlike Chinese New Year, where everything is exciting n hyped up, but i just don't feel the same... think i really enjoy the serenity and silence of the night... ...

My feeling now is exactly like the following song (I edited the lyrics):

Night time sharpens
heightens each sensation...
Darkness wakes
and stirs imagination
Silently the senses
abandon their defences
Dreams in the wildest
one beholdest
For i compose
the music of the night...

Slowly, gently
night unfurls its splendour.
Grasp it, sense it -
tremulous and tender
Hearing is believing
music is deceiving
Hard as lightning
soft as candlelight
Dare you trust
the music of the night...

Close your eyes
and feel the peace that seeps through you
And tranquil
is what you will experience.
In the dark
it is easy to pretend
That calmness
amid the fluttering heart

Softly, deftly
music shall caress you...
Hear it, feel it
secretly possess you...

Open up your mind
let your fantasies unwind
in this darkness which
you know you cannot fight -
the darkness of
the music of the night...

Close your eyes
start a journey through a
strange new world!
Leave all thoughts
of the world
you knew before!

The Ferret Ferrets...

to search like a ferret... assiduously...

inquisitive nature

search answers
search unknown
search myself
search the world
search meaning
search life

no answers,
many unknown.
myself a stranger.
the world abound.
there is meaning,
there is life!

Bored, n juz stoning

Lotsa things to do, but dunno y i juz wanna stone... in front of the comp... that is how i set up this blog. Not exactly interesting, but I guess its something new for me

Darkness creeps in slowly,
Seconds tick by.
Time is not on my side,
But I still let it go by.
Fighting to pull away,
Flesh weak and long to stay.
Motionless,
Other than me fingers.
Stoning,
Only with low sound of breath.

Will I ever wake,
From this persisting delusion.
Will I ever find,
The world of perfection.
Where I can live like my own.

Seeing less of myself everyday,
Giving up to lifeless tasks everyday.

But if there's no work,
Will I ever make the mark???