brother's BIRTHDAY!!! how crabby

haha today had a really tiring day. cos went home straight after sch to cook!!! birthday meal for my brother! hahahaha well n i went to buy his present n some secret recipe cakes! erps not all went well though, cos there were only quite few selections, cos lotsa ppl bought the nice nice cakes liaoz hahahaha but still ok lah bought 4 cakes!

den went home n cooked chilli crab, steamed crab, braised chicken n pork with black fungus n mushroom, n some vegetables! haha though it was hard work, it was worth it! enjoyed a delicious meal! wahahahahha erps but tell u hor... just now i almost kena scared, cos the crab aft being cut up, for about 20 min alr, n when i was ready to cook em, one of the legs MOVED!!!! hahahaha n quite vigorously... but knew it was reflex action of the crab, but tink the crab is abit cham too... but i just ate it anw lahz

k post some fotos!

first lemme show the chilli crab!


hehehehe hot n spicy chilli crab!!! red red leh















nxt, show u the cakes!!! hahahaha four in a row

will intro all these cakes one at a time!!! haha but is buy one get one free!!! hahahaha so even though is $5 per cake, i got 4 cakes for $10!!! hahahaha so wu hua hiak hiak hiak.... but not as nice as wat i ate in KL hahahaha kekeke

first from the left: this is the chocolate cheesecake!!! hahaha really delicious full of chocolate n got chocolate chip! all my fave!!! hahahaha i like this one best!!!

2nd frm L: Americano cheesecake!!! ahhahaha this one not at nice, but choc on traditional cheesecake still worth a try!!!!

Lulalalala hahaha lemme introduce u 2 more cakes lah hahahahaha. there's the blueberry cheesecake! haha bie you yi ban feng wei ne!!! cept didnt really like the cream. hahahaha den there's the strawberry cheesecake!!! the strawberry is smooth n soury n creamy hahahahaha love cheesecakes!

ahahahahha lemme now intro u to the one n only half boiled egg tt my mama made... pls look carefully... its actually overcooked half boiled egg, but its so unique!!! cos the outside is solid n i peeled it off like i'd do in a hard boiled egg but the inside is still abit liquid!!! hahahaha new creation n a new realm of cooking hahaha... k this was my breakfast on wednesday...






n haha took this during my own celebration of MAF this yr la hahahaha looks qt nice horz.

may the fire of Love n Faith burn in us forever!!!!

:-P













Last but not least, how can i ever forget my dear dear hamster xiao bai??? so cute n innocent n plopping down hahahaha well guess its the latest edition of hamster in my hse... wateva...

CA coming in 2 more weeks... aargh!!! y m i still so slack???

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I know not how long the peace will prevail, but I know i'm still so impoverished in my Faith....

I know not what the future holds, but I know there will be a future...

I know not, what this shell is doing... but I know the person must take over, not the shell...

I know not...

But i hope i knew...

playing hse?? will i quake???

goodness... juz checked mail... need to fin mem my dear script by tml... erps i cant even rem the things i just studied n i hav to mem my script???

haiz but no choice lahz....

smilez hopefully i can enjoy nice nice secret recipe cakes tml! provided i hav time to go buy... if playhse ends late den.... n i've to rush home to cook.... tink hor those working mothers really bu4 rong2 yi4 dang1

anw, had my pbl yest, n was informed by this new tutor tt my first tutor (the one v v crazy cos he gave us lotsa learning issues, but well apparently he has gd intentions n he showed to b a surgeon tt knows almost EVERYTHING... erps not like some we had last yr tt tried to smoke ard) went to PAKISTAN! to aid in the earthquake.... WOW!

Really respect him for his courage n kindness! This was the type of doctor i'd set out to be... someone who's very proficient in his work, able to make use of his knowledge to save thousands of lives, willing to go the extra mile to help patients, etc... u noe, really smart n nice n helpful. I want to be like tt... but it seems "want" n "can do" is really miles apart.

it lead me to ask myself, if the occasion arises, will I be so decisive and ready to go into a quake-stricken area, fearless n full of purpose? (n yes... he's married) I don't think i can be that decisive (well, assuming i really become v smart overnite n manage to bcome a great doctor), esp when there's still aftershocks... yup cos i dun wanna leave my family behind... for a trip tt does not promise a full safe return, will I be daring enough to take a gamble?

cant help thinking y there are so many considerations in life... but yes, if i m sure i will b able to return in one piece, albeit getting injured or wat in the process, i'd stand up n shout, " I wanna HELP!"

for i know, if i didnt, there will b many more ppl suffering... ... ...



n yup tt doctor's my inspiration now!!! thank him for this wonderful lesson!!!


so mug on...

ferret ferret ferret ferret ferret ferret ferret ferret ferret ............................

wahahahhahahahahahahhahahaahahahahahahahah
lulalalalalalalalallalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalal
muhahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha

erps testing psychomotor skill... eh prob motor fxn, in case i really kena some lesion due to overanxiety or ruptured bld vessel in the brain.... how how how just realised CA is coming in 2 weeks n i haven touched anything!?!? n some more so many tuition rrrrr n some more the kids nowadays really make me blood spurt etc etc etc etc etc etc... teach em same thing until i oso can mem but they still can get it wrong wrong wrong wrong wrong wrong.... crazy crazy crazy crazy..... RRRRRRRRRRRRRRAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

siao ta bor siao gin na siao bui kia siao dih1

point his toy gun at his head he still dunno how to do.... great if he fail fail fail fail he will know know know know know know rrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr


how how how how how how how how how???????? suddenly feel as stoopid s he..... wait i CA oso.... haiz shit n y on earth is $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$ so impt??? rrrrr n i have no $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$ crazy my bro bought this tea for my uncle's bday tt costs $45 n i hav to pay half.... den still got his bday present n my cousin bday present.... but i still most worried abt CACACACACACACACACACACA

anw gtg tink i have to cook chilli crab again for my bro... (thanks to my papa's suggestion... er... got time meh???) haiz c how lah

gonner

Learning points...

wanted a change of environment, so went to canteen to mug in the morning, but it opened my eyes abit to certain things that i was not aware of. as u've guessed, i couldnt really study cos my fren came over and chatted. actually the four of us just sat together...

all happend when one of them had a phone call which sounded rather serious. his first response was "send to IMH" n i nearly burst out laughing... cos i tot he was joking. It turned out, to b a family problem of his friend, the mum going to the extremes to stop her daughter from choosing a religion of her own choice... n this person on the phone is qt worried for the mum actually. K this is all i can tok abt... hmmm but we were havin a discussion n it was really close to heart, for that was what happened between me and my mum, in fact, whole family (ie bro + dad) but my mum's the stubborn one... u get the drift... so we quarrelled, but eventually i gave in. Continued to learn more about Christ, prayed, read the Bible, only no church. :-P wonder when i'll finally get to go, but i know the day will come! n i have faith, God will melt all their hearts of stone, n convert them!

but i said something which shed abit of light on understanding my mum. If parent and child were of a different religion, the extreme reactions stem from the fact that each believe that he/she was believing in the "true" Way, which will mean the other is "false". In such a scenario, of course the parent will try to "save" the child n do wateva, at all costs, to bring the child back to something which parent thinks is true! This is the source of conflict and reason why sometimes it is so irreconcilable.

Also, most of us cannot accept changes... be it how open mind the younger generation seem to proclaim, for eg, in the study of science it's so ingrained that green plants form food by photosynthesis, but will we be ready to accept it when someone proposes that they get their food instead by parasitism? we'd b skeptical, let alone the older generation, whose beliefs are so unchallenged and ingrained. (guess we'd b liddat nxt time too... haiz y muz we grow old? darn senescence!!!) so it really takes time to convert ur parent or for him/her to accept new faiths, and not infuriate her by merely going against her and do things she doesnt like.

In fact, if u really love ur family, u'd want to bring them onto the path towards what u believe, right? how can one escape from this Herculean task and run away, tinking tt by going against ur parents u'd b right? It is only right to help ur parents get onto the right path too!!!

which is why, i haven ever given up... :-)

N tot i had heard enough shocking things, but the piece of information i learnt about another person gave me a shock too. even though, as usual, it didnt show on my face.

Realised how many things, many people are not within my expectations... I mean things that i learn about them really shocked me sometimes. Maybe i was overprotected? Too protected to commit wrongdoings on my own folly? Or truly it was due to my upbringing? Didnt occur to me so many unexpected things actually happens around me.

hmmm too late liaoz... shall talk abt it some day later... me mama jus knocked my head n hovered over my comp n tell me to slp hahahaha... 2 sides of the coin - caring... but independence???

i;m not slpy... how???

CHaOs???

The week has been uneventful for me, but at least i managed to clear 3 tuitions all in one week... one more barely 7 hrs later... Down with a flu n just recovered, but starting coughing already... chose ALTERNATIVE MEDICINE hahahaha... may or may not help, i'm not sure...

well, the past week for the world has not been uneventful, in fact fraught with crises. From the homegrown dengue problem, to the rising bird flu in Indonesia taking away lives, to the Bali bombing sequela, to the Canadian unknown disease (prob another flu/ SARS / sth of tt sort???) to the threatening of 12 ambassies in Malaysia with possible terrorist acts... The world is indeed not peaceful... More ppl will suffer as a result, more crises, more woes, more tears and blood.

Is it that the world has always been fraught with many many woes, except that i have been ignorant of (eg civil war in some country? disease wiping a whole town?) all along, or is there really going to be a great tragedy imminent? There nothing much we can do about the impending crises / deaths, except to brace up for the occasion.

Read something about suffering these few days... 2 corinthians 12:10 "When I am weak, then I am strong" and how disabled people best understood the grace of the Lord, only when they've experienced and accepted their weakness (disability).... Cant really fully comprehend this, but i guess when one is at his weakest, can he stand up to the test and live with greater strength and perseverance - u need strength to overcome and get away from the weakness

Not sure if i've been through something truly worth calling weakness, but always felt that it is through all these experiences that makes us learn important lessons in our lives... In the comfort of the chair in front of the computer, one thinks of the suffering of someone plaqued by famine, with all empathy, with all desire to help out - but frankly, will this person really understand how it is like to be hungry all his life??? We thought we learn through reflection and observation, but truth is, we learn best through personal crises, and at the end, we all emerge "stronger... than yesterday!!!"

We can think all we want, can probe and wonder about the world, but it will all be but a dream. A white piece of paper we'd still remain. Only when we pick up a pencil and draw it out, will we be a beautiful picture. There may also be certain things that are erased in the process of drawing, but no matter how clean they are erased, the mark made by the pencil will remain as part of the picture... regardless of whether there is a carbon marking or not. Such is the essence of learning through experience (and possible suffering?)

ooops think i'm crapping too much. it always happens... as it always does to me... letting the soul run free in the middle of the serene night.

I am beckoned... to my place of rest...

may the world too rest... and rediscover the peace... and joy!

NITEZ

IT'S CHILDREN'S DAY!!!!

woo hoo enjoy this day everyone!!! live life to the fullest and enjoy each n every precious day like a child does!!! do things tt will make u happy. Happiness n bliss n content is the most impt in life isn't it???

HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY!!!!

hahahahaha
so happy

im a big kid!!!! woooooohoooooooo heeeeehaaaaaa!!!!! wahahahahahahaha

shall get my parents to treat me to a children day meal or even a present!!!! hahahaha yes i m childish!!! im a big child!!! child at heart!!!!!

nothing to pull down my euphoria!!! this is the 3rd time i typing this msg.... the other 2 got deleted accidentally!!!! hahahahaha it's children's day!!!

the week's ramblings?

Hmmm, everytime I have many thoughts and nice things to talk about, but once I get onto the computer, the inspiration and ideas just disappear. Can only stare at the screen blankly, not knowing what to crap about.

Forgive me if my blog is rather empty and un-updated. When u have no time to even take good care of your own body, it is rather obvious that u would not have time to even ramble about the week's happenings. N for Short-Term Memoried ME, i'd hav forgotten most of the significant stuff that happened. Can only remember the mundane stuff like going for tuition and getting blood spurting out everywhere n trying desperately to talk so much within 3 hours tt u get outta breath and soured jaws...

This blog is meant for personal ramblings, not really for my friends to read i guess, that is why i've told no one of this blog, not linking anyone. Anyone who's fated will discover and I will just leave it as that. :-P

Let's recount together what I did for the past few days... starting from today backwards? haha

Today went to sch as usual, 1 hr early, w my bro, den attended the first lect 9 to 10 am. The lecturer is a nice guy(discussed w PNY his tummy too! n exclaiming tt i dun hav tummy!), n he is very detailed, but is v v slow, such tt he only managed to finish his lesson which was meant for the previous day's. Ie we are one lect behind... hai looks like we'd hav to stay back for one xtra hr in the end....

Nxt lesson was 2pm. Shit alot of time. Told myself tt i had to mug the whole 4 hrs to catch up. BUT when i heard my frens gg for badminton, i volunteered to join them! hai stupid foul mouth... but it was impt cos I HAVE NOT EXERCISED FOR THE PAST FEW MONTHS ALREADY!!!! haha so too bad lorz. went and played without change of clothes. So felt very HOT, esp with my jeans. so aft the game went to the toilet to blow dry my shirt n body... haha n met DXK aft his gym n he was lookin into the mirror to c his progress of building up his muscles haha! he was surprised i actually did not have a "lian2 he2 guo2" on my tummy... haha den told him this is my worst form liaoz... much fitter during BMT.

den realised almost everyone exercised at least once a week... haiz... tink i'd better exercise more!!! haha attempted to do it a fortnight ago, but its either weather bad, no time or v lazy. haha I DUN WANNA B FAT, FAIR N FLABBY!!!! HOW????? MUZ EXERCISE!!!!! NO MOTIVATION!!!! HAIZ HOW HOW HOW!!!! den my fren even say i nvr exercise den suddenly study halfway heart attack ah .... CHOY CHOY CHOY. so bad one.

oh den during the first lect, lecturer cracked a joke abt the more babies women give birth to, the less risk of breast cancer (less exposure to estrogen) n haha ZKX tt couple, who was sitting beside me, wrote something instantaneouly on his notes and showed it to her. wahahahahaha den tt gal lovingly hit him! he then erased his comment haha.(before i attempted to er haha find out) guess mabbe he's already making plans for a few kids!!! wahahahahahaha so fast hor

fat fat fat ah but me still watch tv tv tv hahahahaha

oh n this wk made cranes n bought a scarf n hat, intending to give my fren who's leaving for further studies nxt wk. Haven finish making, but have to give it to her this weekend! cos no time already. hope i can finish it! n wishing her all the best!

Gone are the emotions of the yesteryears, embrace n look forward into the future!

haha I cant even commit myself to stay true to my feelings, what else is there but to give up???

hmmm tink my post will be too long if i continue to write about the previous days. think nothing much lah, but wed was DXK's bday n on tues i got a v funny CHinese sms from TKH. It goes, "那天我肚子痛，就去大变，很顺畅，很大条。 最大的那条上面竟然还刻有你的名字！原来好朋友不是常挂在嘴边，而是收藏在心里，太满了， 才漏一点点出来。“ hahahaha den sent it to qt some ppl

hmmm den got an sms frm HWX, my pri sch classmate. felt qt surprised she suddenly sent the sms, but was touched by her sms. Also about friends, but very touching, unlike the abovementioned one hahahaha

k its 1.14 am liaoz n i need to get up for tuition tml, so guess I shall blog another day again!

cya n take care, whoever chances upon this blog


PS: can those ppl who has read the blog tag on the tagboard, so tt at least i know whos reading it? thanks! cya all!