Wahahaha 6 months!

ha tempted to wait till 5th of feb to make it a whole 6 mths. but yups since im online and dun feel like packing stuff, i'd just blog!

these 6 mths... long ride! but i can only say the most amazing thing in my life that happened is still spiritual growth! That is the most precious and valuable to me! God!

Life is so interesting! Many ups and downs - the cycle just continues. However, only God is constant and it is Him who carries me through! Even though now im still at the crossroads in some aspects of my life, I am confident and not exactly worried about what lies ahead, for I know He will lead me. I just have to obey, absolute obedience!

many have asked why did i choose the word ferret. well as you know ferret (noun) = a type of animal, but also means "an assiduous search". Set up this blog when I was still backsliding, when I was still searching for the truth. Yet, now that I have found it, it is still an endless search for God. There are new things to be learnt, there are more truths to be discovered!

hmmm well, shall think about what to write first... meanwhile, will just post mini blog notes which i write in my hp whenever i feel like it. Ha!

05 06 2007
Have not talked so much to so many people in a long while… Have not watched such an early movie for a long while… Have not experienced early morning jog on a weekday until today… I’m truly enjoying myself…Life is so much more interesting when you’re not forcing facts into you head… Maybe one should meet up with his friends during our break every year… Mundane things seem so much more precious now. And yes having the time to walk with the Lord quietly is a blessing!

07 06 2007
Used to think 1 hour is so short… Run for half an hour, after all the cooling down it’d be gone. Mug less than a chapter. Clerk maybe 2 patients. A TV serial. Dinner time plus some TV. But today, in 1 hour I’ve collected my printer, brought it home, tested, tried to get a cat to respond and when I finally arrived at the same bench at the MRT station, I looked up… Exactly 1 hour. Wow. Maybe it’s the way we do things… But yet if every hour was as stressed as this, we probably won’t have many hours left…

08 06 2007
Not sure why, but I seem to be able to connect to the more grassroots people… Probably that’s cos where I grew up. However, I really think I’m more quiet and don’t really know how to express myself. Yes the word is shy. N I do not open up easily,,, Though I look very much extroverted but in fact I’m really quite an introvert. Yup and I think I have the Singaporean syndrome… Keep quiet and more stoic, unless I’m really offended. It’s kinda weird cos on one hand I’m extro, like to do outdoor stuff but when it comes to starting conversation and knowing new friends I’m rather shy, if left on my own. I fare much better when there’s someone to company… just some random tots…

17 08 2007
Marching phenomenon at outram park NEL vs EWL. No one talks! Only footsteps in unison!

Shuttle bus to KK from Bugis. By word of mouth I got to know about it, but word of mouth I confirmed its existence – from the MRT staff. There was no sign no nothing at the bus stop, only a queue. And I joined the queue with no questions asked. Interesting how Singaporeans behave, me included ha. And the queue just kept on growing… In silence.

31 08 2007
I saw the same shirt twice worn by different persons, at different places. It says ‘I Love Life’. Sets me thinking. Guess it’s a privilege to be able to love life. How can you love life if you’re born with cerebral palsy, premature with multiple organ failure and so on. When you are hooked on machines for life or just lie ties plainly moving involuntarily with no inkling of what’s happening around you cos your brain hasn’t a chance to develop? N you get

03 11 2007
Today… I saw how unlimited maternal love seemed. She’d be a good example to be on an ad regarding the joy of motherhood. On the MRT she was carrying one infant and playing with her. When her older child showed signs of wanting attention (pulling on tt arm which was ‘entertaining’ his sibling) and tiredness, she carried her baby higher, to make space on her lap for the older child to lie on. Joy was written all over her face. Nothing seemed to daunt her. Nothing tt her children does. Entertainer of her children. Energetic! Motherly love and happiness simply exude. One word: respect.

And give it a thought - this motherly love which seems boundless - why can’t we apply this love, to people around us? Love is the only thing that knows no boundaries. And it can be done. So why not? And how much more is God’s love for us? The boundless love which God promised, is true!

18 11 2007
I actually miss the weekly tuition sessions… Actually mis my tutee. Hmm didn’t say much to him on the last session, but yup sincerely hope the best for him.

22 12 2007
What does ‘family’ mean to u? It is some place where there is love, where you are valued, where you grew up. However, it is this ‘family’ that seems so different from ‘the rest of your friends’. And we tend to neglect that fact.

They are the people most dear to you, but yet it is most difficult to talk to them about things close to heart, especially when you’re on opposite ends of the word ‘religion’. You know them too well, you know how they’re like and you know further probing will turn the tables and the door is shut. So how do you every try, how do you ever start? Especially in the Chinese culture where ur elders are always right and not to be questioned or doubted. Your credibility is zero when facing them. And they too don’t question what they’ve done, for years. Some things that seem so obvious. Yes, I only know that the human effort is limited in our trying. Only grace will change anything and everything. Grace be upon my family, I pray.

13 01 2008
Presence of God. Was overwhelmed at the Heidi Baker conference. I just know that I have to go forth and live for Him, and be a testimony of His Love! And yes, in Africa many people are poor and they know it. Yet in Singapore, many people are spiritually poor, yet they do not know it. It really saddens me for when I turn around and look at the people around me, so many of them still do not know God, still do not know the truth. It is my responsibility to go forth and show them who God is, what He does.

24 01 2008
My tutee got back his O levels. I felt really very happy for him. In fact I never knew that I could derive such satisfaction from teaching. He did not do exactly very well overall. It was his standard. However, of all his subjects, he scored highest in those 3 subjects which I taught. He got grades which I never dreamt he’d get, albeit not the best score possible. And I was really happy for him. Yet, he did poorly for those subjects which I did not teach. So yups, not sure if I could be entirely happy about it.

but yups, definitely feel a sense of satisfaction.

28 01 2008
Ha so shi bai staring at someone yet when he saw me had to look away ha. Cos he was putting on his contact lenses in the MRT! wow! so super! if it was me, I would have dropped it or shove it into the back of my eye.