Sunday Reflections

A ferret.

Always searching, always finding.

How apt.

Today, I found another thing... did some thinking... here goes

Did my own quiet time, was initially unable to connect to the passage and understand it. In fact, there were alot of negative thoughts and reflections that made me feel that I have lost myself. The details of all this, of course, were written in my bible study book. I prayed, asking the Lord to guide me, and after which, I was able to connect to the passage. Read Psalms 143. And it fully matched how I was feeling.

I prayed, that I do not lose my fervour for the Lord, however, I was ashamed of myself and felt unworthy for Him. v1 "O Lord, hear my prayer, listen to my cry for mercy; in your faithfulness and righteousness come to my relief"
v4 "So my spirit grows faint within me; my heart within me is dismayed." like how i was feeling just now.

It also reflected how I was previously like, just before my M1 Final Exam, always longing for God, when I was still searching for the truth about Christianity... Had a strange longing for God, though I could not bring myself to believe Him at that point of time. I read His Word, really wanted to find more about Him: v5 "I remember the days of long ago; I meditated on all your workds and consider waht your hands have done." v6 "I spread out my hands to you; my soul thirsts for you like a parched land."

And just now, this was exactly how I felt and prayed: v7 "Answer me quickly, O Lord; my spirit faints with longing. Do not hide your face from me or I will be like those who go down to the pit".

And now i hope: v8-9 "Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you. Show me the way I should go, for to you I lift up my soul. Rescue me from my enemies, O Lord, for I hide myself in you."

And of course, I prayed that He would,
v10 "Teach me to do our will, for you are my God; may your good spirit lend me on level ground."

Hope and confidence were restored... the morning was no longer looming with dark clouds. the Light of Jesus has lighted up my gloomy day! :-P

No matter what the sin, the defeat, the discouragement, the false accusation, the overwhelming task, the tragedy, the sorrow... No matter how deep the darkness, no matter how terrible the failure, God wraps his arms of unfailing love around you once again today!

The beautiful sunset will give way to darkness, but the sun is never down. There is sunrise at the same moment in another place.... Just like God's unfailing Love... always there....