Am now resorting to the internet cafe to check my emails, as the internet in school cannot access all my email accounts. Basically anything that needs log-in cannot be accessed. Can't be helped, cos I need to check my emails! Yet the internet cafe keyboard is really atrocious. Cant type. All the keys are hardened.
Yups, but the internet cafe here's ok, faster speed than school and quite affordable – 1500 shillings (about SGD1.50) per hour, with bonus of 10 mins, so its about 70 mins. Hmmm, but yups, don't think i'd check up on other people's blogs as much, cos its really difficult to get the net. Ha those in Kisiizi has better internet than us! They are on MSN almost everyday! Ha to think we're still in the capital city while they're in the more rural Kabale hahahaha interesting.
Back to sharing what I have been up to these days.
SCHOOL – started school, got to know the locals, talked to patients. Got the hang of stuff, basically saw cases quite similar in Singapore, except that the differential diagnoses were starkly different. Fever = malaria until proven otherwise. Quinine is given liberally to patients with fever and neurological symptoms. Young patient with hemiplegia or stroke like picture is ISS (immunosuppressive state, ie HIV) with suspicion of HIV vasculitis / CNS lymphoma / toxoplasmosis; Meningitis picture, think always of cryptococcus and indian ink. And I guess MBBS examiners will be so happy to come to the wards here. They do not have to list cases.. Almost everyone has like huge stuff. For eg, a hemato pt asked me to check on him, then one hand on the abdomen the diagnosis is out ha hepatosplenomeg +++ etc etc. But of course, the neuro signs are just comparable with our NNI haha.
Got to know many of the locals, am surprised my memory for faces & names were actually working that well. But yes, probably when I go back to Spore, my defunct memory will surface again. Here, I actually talk more to nursing students than I did the whole 4 yrs of my med sch. Ha, probably they're more friendly here? So I taught them a lot of stuff, like reading ECG and CT scans but yups me not very good at these myself! Ha JL taught some of them (haha she actually rem the wrong name and contacted the wrong person... so embarrassing... but as usual hahahahaha.) computer skills, like Microsoft Word, cos they do not have a computer, do not even know how to switch on one but need to use it for literature review (!?!!) Ha high expectations ah! Sigh, perhaps I've come from such an advance place I behave like a goon. So I usually watch certain things first before doing... Ha like for eg taking blood sugar... Spore one is put it in and it will switch on by itself. So I put the stick in, then waited and waited. Then realised it did not switch on... haha Then the nursing student was looking at me like I was some goon. Ha but yups i found the switch and on and did everything all over again. Things like this la... you get the idea.
But of course, have seen more deaths than I had. Could not take it at first...Felt exasperated. Cos these were many patients who deteriorated quickly cos the diagnosis was not made in time. Why? Invx not done OR they had no $$ to pay. Invx not done can be due to absurd reasons like NO GLOVE (cos it gets locked up some where even though there is, only sister gets it...) or sterile set (erps... tink it happens only in my ward... cos JL's ward has chlorhexidine too... mine really deficient. tink its the system) or the intern didnt feel like it.... wow.... so its pushed to the nxt day. And ya so patients go off like this: was conscious on first day, LP / other invx not done, so 2nd day semi conscious, 3rd day unconscious (btw, a lot of my patients are on the ward but unconscious and no one really asks the big WHY... take it as stroke causing unconsciousness) then need oxygen, so they get sent out of the ward to the common corridor where there is only one oxygen tank... and the intern will say almost 100% of patients who went to the oxygen area never made it back... I was like !?!?!. Oh wells. There is no crash cart everything. You get the idea. Basically its quite exasperating for me. Teaching not really that good... would have preferred the NNI teaching! Ha so its just the experience and self study, not so much that of learning. But yes i do learn about toxoplasmosis malaria tetanus (the spasms are triggered by noise!!!) etc which I have never heard of in my life. Here it is like if you do not know whats a ring enhancing lesion on CT, its criminal!
K ENOUGH OF SCHOOL
ENTERTAINMENT – First weekend when I reached there, I was brought around alot... covered in the previous posts. then first week Thursday, another Sporean-Msian (the same one tt brought us to church on the 1st weekend) treated us to dinner, where we met other fellow Sporeans... about 10 of us... we ate at this place in atas (yes, their definition, not ours) Garden City, in the City Central, at the eatery called Spurs Silver City. Basically its a atas South African restaurant. Yups, foood was ok. Then 2nd weekend was boring, studied then went to the biggest pentecostal church KPC (mentioned in previous post) and bought lotsa souvenirs. Ha. 3rd weekend... Went to Uganda Museum, though the Bradt guide gave it a really low score but i had so much fun at the African village. It is those african village houses (mud + straw) kind of the different tribes... took lotsa photos there. Had intended to go to Kasubi tombs on the same day, but we actually overstayed in the museum so much that there was no time to go down there. Kasubi tombs was given a higher rating... haha never mind, we still have time. Then the next day we went to New Redemption church. We were brought there by this Ugandan pastor whom we met on the airplane. There we witnessed a church wedding!!!! Then he treated us to this atas cafe (erps... didnt quite catch the name... but tt place was packed with foreigners... so you know how much the grading is) the food was alright... ha but it was nice. Then he brought us to his house and his office.
FOOD – haha usually i'd have bread and jam / peanut butter plus mocha (milo plus nescafe) for breakfast, local food (matoke ie steamed bananas etc ) for lunch and cook dinner myself with the oven! Ha so yups its nice! And bowel movement has been rigorous, cos the local food is high fibre (ha no not much vegetables, but imagine your whole plate is steamed bananas….)
SPIRITUAL – Ha, hmmm am thankful for the Lord for laying the path in Uganda so smooth... we keep on meeting many people who takes us around... if there was no one to show us around, i think we'd get lost and leading a very un-entertaining life haha. Don't have much plans, but guess might be going to all the tourist attractions in kampala and entebbe.
Got to pray for a patient. Other than that, haven really done much. My initial motive for this trip was more of a spiritual one than a medical one... Wanted to see life as a mission doctor, see things in a mission hospital, to talk to people about my Lord. But things had not been what I had expected, as there was a huge change of plans due to the situation in Kenya... Haven done much of these, just going around to different churches and see see look look. But yups, I know God has it all planned for me... in fact the way I found myself in Uganda was almost something that was so smooth and unexpected. So keeping my eyes open, my heart open. Just know that in everything I do, I do it for Him and He will shine through, no matter how little or much i feel I have done. Yups.
ENVIRONMENT – AIR ETC – yes, its really dusty here, especially on the roads. the first few days we thought we were going to get asthma and get black lungs after 2 months! Ha really appreciate our garden city so much! Air is really considered very clean in Spore. So will not complain when i get back! Ha Getting muddy shoes to the wards is really like the norm... at least no one cares... try getting one into the wards at our hospitals... think you'd get screamed at. Ha and they have really red soil here... everywhere it is... Temperature here is like Spore. but humidity really nice!
anw... dun seem to be able to upload photos... really slow k so cya all
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
in reply to my class blog
There are several issues that struck me after reading these few blog entries. I would just like to point out certain things which I feel. Not in any motive, but just to share. Before I begin, you must understand that probably my approach to things is very much different from all of yours. To a “to-be doctor” I guess every thing boils down to practicalities. That is me, focusing on what I see as practical. (at this point you must note that I am typing this with only distant memory of what you have discussed, cos I rarely have internet in Uganda, so my apologies if I’ve gotten a wrong impression of what any of you have said) So just pointing out stuff which looks starkly different from what I think. And yes, I constantly like to explain and think and even challenge the bible. I’ve been taught to do that. But the fundamental belief is that all things can be explained, there are no contradictions in the bible, just whether one has the time to read through it. But yes, I am rushing thru this, so just typing what comes to my mind. NOT STRUCTURED AT ALL.
Firstly, some of you have quoted several philosophers and so on. My question is, these are but just mere humans expressing their views and thinking. So they are just like you and me, trying to explain certain things in life, just putting forth theories etc. Yet, theories are but theories, no matter how rational, how logical they seem, is it the truth? If they are not, why bother even reading / quoting them? (hmmm guess up to this point I can already feel many arrows shooting onto me) Yes, for interest. Yups, for history. Other than that? One may quote philosophies that appeal to him to explain his point. That further skews everything – one leads to another to another. So is that the truth? No.
However, I know nothing about plagiarism of the Greek philosophers. So please educate me. But before we jump to any conclusions about that, what you are talking about is probably some isolated teachings on how to be “good”, almost all religions alike, so who is plagiarizing who? But yet, these are but secondary. It is the central idea that matters. Most religions teach us to be “good”, but what is “good”? Universal morality as you have mentioned? Is being “good” as we’ve defined the end to it all? Then of course I would agree that all religions are the same, there is not much thinking to be done, and of course coolgoh’s take on how intellectual people, those who can reason what is good and what is not, do not need religion etc. These are but standards set by man for man. Are these the true standards?
Yes, I anticipate you all will start standing up and say why am I highlighting what is true etc, is there really a truth etc etc. But simple simple. There must be a truth. And my take is that a truth is a truth. It cannot be challenged cannot be changed. So there can only be one explanation, not others. (of course, if I dwell on why I think Christianity is the sole truth etc, I’d have to take the whole day… shan’t go onto that yet. mabbe in future)
Next, many people have mis-quoted the bible. The bible is ONE book. So it has to be interpreted as a whole, not isolated lines. (although the labeling of the verses have made it so convenient for people to quote) For the bible, there is simply no distinction of the new and the old testament. It is just like chapter one and chapter two of a novel. The new is a continuation of the old. There are no new laws no new ideas. You all have been quoting Matthew, so lets start off from Matthew 1 and 2 then. Matthew 1 tells of the genealogy of Jesus. It traces all the forefathers etc. God has attempted to prove to man that all these are part of history. If we really trace, all these are the exact lineage. Note that a large part of the bible is dedicated to the lineage. These are not invented, but is recorded, so that the future people (like us) know how the history progressed. So the bible is a record of historical (NOT fictional) events. And the lineage of Abraham all the way to Jesus, tells of the fact that how since the beginning of time God has already been wanting to send Jesus down to save mankind. The old testament is the covenant of law, while the new testament is the covenant of grace. The old testament tells of the promise God will send One to save mankind. The new testament tells of the promise of salvation through the One.
Note that there are many cross references in the bible, as it is all one book! For eg in Matthew 1 the birth of Jesus was described exactly in Isaiah 7:14 (shows fulfilling of the prophecy), that he will be born out of a virgin and was from the Holy Spirit. Then in Matthew 2, there are cross references to Micah 5:2 (that he will be born in Bethlehem) and then in Hosea 11:1 (that he was to raise his son in Egypt). etc etc So my point being the new testament is interpretation of the old testament, it explains the old testament, which some might not understand. So there are no new laws, new things. God did not change. He was always a God of love. He did not “turn into a loving God” instantly in the new testament.
Yes, God is jealous. But if you interpret the whole passage instead of that line, you’d understand what this “jealous” means. These people were worshipping idols instead of God. God is NOT jealous (like the jealousy in humans) of the idols, but He is jealous of the love of man. He loves us so much, desires to have fellowship with us so much so that if we do not love Him / fellowship with Him, He is being torn apart. That is being “jealous”. (think: one sided love affair) Is He still perfect? Yes.
About all the destruction to mankind, how God destroyed cities of Sodom etc etc… It is judgment. From the start till the end of the bible, it is all about judgment. We have sinned. So we need judgment. Just like how if we break a law in Singapore, we have to face up to the punishment. Except that WHEN is the judgment met. For the “old testament people” their judgment has been done. For the “new testament ppl” it will occur after we die.
Idea about original sin. We all know that humans are not perfect. It is not just about choices. We may sin even without choosing to. The thought, the action, just comes to our mind. Its almost like a spinal reflex. No thought.
We may try to explain our ideas, our existence by our wisdom, knowledge or intellect. Yet we know that if someone is of lower intellect, he may never explain things as the higher intellect sees it. So the higher intellect must explain to the lower one. If we can apply this to the situation between man and God, then you’d see why I think it is pointless to look at philosophers and so on. Humans like to think arrogantly that we are the highest on this earth and so we attempt to explain everything ourselves. Yet, are we really the highest being? No. (note that if we are the highest being, we would not be subjected to sufferings etc, we would be the one creating this world and not subjected to the forces of this world.) And can we ever explain fully something of the higher being? No. Its just like a dog can never explain what his master thinks (erps poor analogy I know but you get the idea) So you need the higher being to explain things to you. Which is God. God came down (in the form of Jesus) to explain things to us, to explain the old testament to us.
Erps taken too long. Too much to explain. (haha we should all meet up when XY etc comes back! class outing!) But yups the crux is Christianity is logical and rational. If you would allow, just email me each contradiction you (anyone, not just XY or GCS) think and I will try my best to explain. Yet note all my answers will be from the Bible. NOT from any philosophers or any other people. So I can only give a Christian perspective. And doesn’t matter if you’re an atheist or Buddhist or what. Yups, guess its just a exchange of ideas, breaching a closer understanding!
Last note. The difference in Christianity is that it is all about a personal relationship with God, not any intellectual discussion or anything. You will know that He is in your life, He is there. You can feel the Holy Spirit, you know He is guiding you. A true Christian is one who has a relationship with God, not just based upon some simple motive or logic. It is like a love affair with your spouse. (And yes, the love between man and woman is but an emulation of the relationship between God and Jesus, through the Holy Spirit, shan’t go into that…)
kk. Shucks. My English is really atrocious. Too much of dialects & Singlish in the wards! Now lugandan! haha
Firstly, some of you have quoted several philosophers and so on. My question is, these are but just mere humans expressing their views and thinking. So they are just like you and me, trying to explain certain things in life, just putting forth theories etc. Yet, theories are but theories, no matter how rational, how logical they seem, is it the truth? If they are not, why bother even reading / quoting them? (hmmm guess up to this point I can already feel many arrows shooting onto me) Yes, for interest. Yups, for history. Other than that? One may quote philosophies that appeal to him to explain his point. That further skews everything – one leads to another to another. So is that the truth? No.
However, I know nothing about plagiarism of the Greek philosophers. So please educate me. But before we jump to any conclusions about that, what you are talking about is probably some isolated teachings on how to be “good”, almost all religions alike, so who is plagiarizing who? But yet, these are but secondary. It is the central idea that matters. Most religions teach us to be “good”, but what is “good”? Universal morality as you have mentioned? Is being “good” as we’ve defined the end to it all? Then of course I would agree that all religions are the same, there is not much thinking to be done, and of course coolgoh’s take on how intellectual people, those who can reason what is good and what is not, do not need religion etc. These are but standards set by man for man. Are these the true standards?
Yes, I anticipate you all will start standing up and say why am I highlighting what is true etc, is there really a truth etc etc. But simple simple. There must be a truth. And my take is that a truth is a truth. It cannot be challenged cannot be changed. So there can only be one explanation, not others. (of course, if I dwell on why I think Christianity is the sole truth etc, I’d have to take the whole day… shan’t go onto that yet. mabbe in future)
Next, many people have mis-quoted the bible. The bible is ONE book. So it has to be interpreted as a whole, not isolated lines. (although the labeling of the verses have made it so convenient for people to quote) For the bible, there is simply no distinction of the new and the old testament. It is just like chapter one and chapter two of a novel. The new is a continuation of the old. There are no new laws no new ideas. You all have been quoting Matthew, so lets start off from Matthew 1 and 2 then. Matthew 1 tells of the genealogy of Jesus. It traces all the forefathers etc. God has attempted to prove to man that all these are part of history. If we really trace, all these are the exact lineage. Note that a large part of the bible is dedicated to the lineage. These are not invented, but is recorded, so that the future people (like us) know how the history progressed. So the bible is a record of historical (NOT fictional) events. And the lineage of Abraham all the way to Jesus, tells of the fact that how since the beginning of time God has already been wanting to send Jesus down to save mankind. The old testament is the covenant of law, while the new testament is the covenant of grace. The old testament tells of the promise God will send One to save mankind. The new testament tells of the promise of salvation through the One.
Note that there are many cross references in the bible, as it is all one book! For eg in Matthew 1 the birth of Jesus was described exactly in Isaiah 7:14 (shows fulfilling of the prophecy), that he will be born out of a virgin and was from the Holy Spirit. Then in Matthew 2, there are cross references to Micah 5:2 (that he will be born in Bethlehem) and then in Hosea 11:1 (that he was to raise his son in Egypt). etc etc So my point being the new testament is interpretation of the old testament, it explains the old testament, which some might not understand. So there are no new laws, new things. God did not change. He was always a God of love. He did not “turn into a loving God” instantly in the new testament.
Yes, God is jealous. But if you interpret the whole passage instead of that line, you’d understand what this “jealous” means. These people were worshipping idols instead of God. God is NOT jealous (like the jealousy in humans) of the idols, but He is jealous of the love of man. He loves us so much, desires to have fellowship with us so much so that if we do not love Him / fellowship with Him, He is being torn apart. That is being “jealous”. (think: one sided love affair) Is He still perfect? Yes.
About all the destruction to mankind, how God destroyed cities of Sodom etc etc… It is judgment. From the start till the end of the bible, it is all about judgment. We have sinned. So we need judgment. Just like how if we break a law in Singapore, we have to face up to the punishment. Except that WHEN is the judgment met. For the “old testament people” their judgment has been done. For the “new testament ppl” it will occur after we die.
Idea about original sin. We all know that humans are not perfect. It is not just about choices. We may sin even without choosing to. The thought, the action, just comes to our mind. Its almost like a spinal reflex. No thought.
We may try to explain our ideas, our existence by our wisdom, knowledge or intellect. Yet we know that if someone is of lower intellect, he may never explain things as the higher intellect sees it. So the higher intellect must explain to the lower one. If we can apply this to the situation between man and God, then you’d see why I think it is pointless to look at philosophers and so on. Humans like to think arrogantly that we are the highest on this earth and so we attempt to explain everything ourselves. Yet, are we really the highest being? No. (note that if we are the highest being, we would not be subjected to sufferings etc, we would be the one creating this world and not subjected to the forces of this world.) And can we ever explain fully something of the higher being? No. Its just like a dog can never explain what his master thinks (erps poor analogy I know but you get the idea) So you need the higher being to explain things to you. Which is God. God came down (in the form of Jesus) to explain things to us, to explain the old testament to us.
Erps taken too long. Too much to explain. (haha we should all meet up when XY etc comes back! class outing!) But yups the crux is Christianity is logical and rational. If you would allow, just email me each contradiction you (anyone, not just XY or GCS) think and I will try my best to explain. Yet note all my answers will be from the Bible. NOT from any philosophers or any other people. So I can only give a Christian perspective. And doesn’t matter if you’re an atheist or Buddhist or what. Yups, guess its just a exchange of ideas, breaching a closer understanding!
Last note. The difference in Christianity is that it is all about a personal relationship with God, not any intellectual discussion or anything. You will know that He is in your life, He is there. You can feel the Holy Spirit, you know He is guiding you. A true Christian is one who has a relationship with God, not just based upon some simple motive or logic. It is like a love affair with your spouse. (And yes, the love between man and woman is but an emulation of the relationship between God and Jesus, through the Holy Spirit, shan’t go into that…)
kk. Shucks. My English is really atrocious. Too much of dialects & Singlish in the wards! Now lugandan! haha
Monday, April 14, 2008
3rd
Today is an interesting day. I met the first (erhm, he just goes to the ward every day and shouts), nope second psy patient, no not a patient, he was just outside the medical school. Ha, guess its no different in the nationalities when it comes to psychiatry. But the locals were nice, they helped me out and find me a computer when I was waiting for one. Ha. ok. 10 more minutes before procedure time, but guess they'd make me wait again. Just had a filling lunch and trying to access the internet and emails now! The weekend had been good, I stayed home on saturday to catch up on my reading (yes yr 5's imminent!) and then went to a big church – Kampala Pentecostal Church – on Sunday. It was good, the sermon's by an invited Jew born-again. It was interesting, he talked about family. Yups, the ministry starts from the family, if not there is not testimony to talk about
Then went to buy souvenirs at a craft centre in Kampala. It was nice! Ha i saw many crafts on animal skins which made me drool but sigh each one's like SGD 60. So ex. So ya didnt buy those. Bought other nice crafts! Ha their artwork's great.
Well, k shall update ya all again. But basically, there is nothing much to talk about school, ha just an interesting way of life, many things are different and you'd really appreciate the Singapore system. Shall see if i can find another pastor who has several orphanages. Hope to visit some of them and do some work there! :P
Then went to buy souvenirs at a craft centre in Kampala. It was nice! Ha i saw many crafts on animal skins which made me drool but sigh each one's like SGD 60. So ex. So ya didnt buy those. Bought other nice crafts! Ha their artwork's great.
Well, k shall update ya all again. But basically, there is nothing much to talk about school, ha just an interesting way of life, many things are different and you'd really appreciate the Singapore system. Shall see if i can find another pastor who has several orphanages. Hope to visit some of them and do some work there! :P
Thursday, April 10, 2008
2nd post
2nd post, hope it can get thru
It has been good, I have already gotten use to the pace and the life here. And finally I'm on a computer that can access gmail, blog, yahoo. Ok, well, hmmm there seems to have some problems loading the pages again. So hmmm, I shall reserve my comments. And the queer thing about the keyboards here is that it is different from what I usually use. For many of them, the “@” is NOT above the number “2” key. It is “ instead. So yes, when I saw this dell computer with the dell keyboard with all the familiar keys, I thought it was different, for it was printed on the keyboard as “2” and “@”, yet, just as i am typing this message, I realised it was no difference. Ha. Just a random comment.
Yes, for the past 2 days I have been trying in vain to blog something... Ha always problem with the word processor or with accessing the blog itself. Anyway, I've found much cheaper food, thanks to the locals, and am adapting much more to the system. Yes, the system here is really dependent on what you want to do, it is very much like in Singapore, except that you take on abit more responsibilities. Ha went to admit a patient the other day, and presented in rounds. Ha but when it came to correcting and carrying out the plans of management, the consultant passed it to the intern. Oh well, ha. And yes, today the other students were all gone, so I got to do and learn much more, cos I was the only student around. i have not taken so many BP before.
Saw myriad of cases, but its starting to be the same... shall look to the surgery side muhahahaha. Anw, I hope to see and do LP today! :P tt's all about it in neurology... I'm still quite averse to doing procedures, but JL has scrubbed in like a few times. Ha but yes, will do LP ha. i try to “disappear” after the rounds while the interns are doing the blood taking. Then I will try to go back when its time for LP ha. But yes, just be careful lorz. Learnt quite a few local lang and the way they speak. it is Lugandan. Mzungu = foreigner; Weebale = thank you, Kale = you're welcome, Olio Otya (pronounced as 'tia') = how are u feeling today? and if you want someone to do something immediately, you have to say “now now” and not just “now” ha.
SHucks can't see the cursor now on the blog. Shall give it abit more patience and see how it goes. Wonder if this blog is going to get thru again! Anw, have received new news that I have gotten a merit for my ethics test. hmmm wow. didnt know i was that ethical ha. yups guess it was just by fluke. Having to study it during the shiong Obstetrics & Gyne posting was bad!
Baaaah. no more medical stuff first. Shall tell you all what i've done so far... Actually looking forward more to the weekends than anything. Ha cos tt's when i get to play! wooo!
Friday when i first reached, i had to change money... wow i changed like more than 2 million shillings. we both freaked out. that was a thick wad of notes. It was all in 20,000 pieces, so its like 3 to 4 cm thick la! then the driver was quite far away and we didnt know where to hide it. Ha i tried to downplay my anxiety and walked coolly towards the car. anw, yups the weather here is hot but not humid, so u sweat less. but need to put sunscreen. Lots of dust, but yes, the place where i'm staying is on the campus, which is built on a hill, so its slightly cooler and the air is really fresh! just that the city and the roads are abit dusty. on the first day when the local student brought us to the market, we were not used to it, for we were the minority and were getting the stares. but guess now its all ok, feeling more like a superstar than anything ha. And yes, at night its darker, cos the lights aren't as aplenty as in Singapore. So had a bit of adjustment to do.
Had a try of the local food, matoke. which is some starch like thing. Taste ok, similar to rice stuff and the like. yups. They usually eat alot of starch together with the sauce, which can be chicken, beef, fish or even goat. yups It is quite nice la. I'm a big rubbish dump, so yups tt's why i tink i dun really mind. Think the Singapore Lei Cha thingy is the worst dish i've tasted so far hahaha.
went to visit many places. last saturday, went to walk ourselves in the streets, just to get a feel, topped up SIM card etc. Then the honey man, Lesster, a very nice fellow Singaporean who owns bee farms and produces honey in Uganda, brought us around and we enjoyed ourselves. He first brought us to this "Atas" place called Garden City, which is a shopping centre, where we ate nice local food. GOAT meat yes. hahaha in other words mutton. Anw then shopped for maps and bought an african recipe book. Then we followed him to an orphanage, that was set up by the swiss. Too bad we didnt get to go in and see...the security was tight, cos they were afraid ppl will come in to take the children for black magic. But yes, according to him, those ppl only wants children without any defects, so they poke ear holes for them, so that they will not catch them. He made it sound scary... they will decapitate the children they catch. But yes, so children, do go get ur ears poked and u're safe. more reasons for girls to poke ear holes hahahaha
then went to his place, and cos the other 4 of my frens who stayed in his house the previous night (getting ready to go up to the more rural part, Kabale) told him that i could cook very well, so yes, he made me cook for him. Ha cooked gong bao ji ding (the chicken u know) and brinjal w bean sauce and just stir fried the vegetables. Yups. Had fun playing with his 2 sheep (ha kor kor note!) and feeding them with cassia leaves. then he has like 6 huge german shepherds! WoW! Ha, but yes, it was under lock. Had great time talking to him, he was a nice person.
Oh yes, he intro us to this Christian and fellow Singaporean who works here and was previously a missionary, when we said we wanted to go to church. And so our sunday was filled with activity too! went to this church called Covenant Nations Church, according to him was started by the first lady and some powerful ppl. it's a small church, and got to know this Congolese couple there, whose whole family have been killed in the civil strife. prayed for them, and for their newborn. Really an experience. Learnt alot from the sermon, about turning round against the devil instead of letting him attack us. Ha then had nice fried chicken with matoke, then went to his house to use the internet, had some singapore peach tea (wow am still missing it, yes the Pokka one; he had his fren bring it) then went to this nice church function - it sorta like a ceremony for the boys turning 13, saying that they are now adults and hold responsibility to God, etc etc. Their commitment and their maturity, especially in Christ was remarkable! Both of us were impressed and JL wanted to implement it in her youth ministry. I thought it was a good idea too! ha shall try to get photos from her and show u all...
the rest of the days i've spent here's all about sch. yups it has been good, as previously mentioned. k shall stop here. do check updates here again!
It has been good, I have already gotten use to the pace and the life here. And finally I'm on a computer that can access gmail, blog, yahoo. Ok, well, hmmm there seems to have some problems loading the pages again. So hmmm, I shall reserve my comments. And the queer thing about the keyboards here is that it is different from what I usually use. For many of them, the “@” is NOT above the number “2” key. It is “ instead. So yes, when I saw this dell computer with the dell keyboard with all the familiar keys, I thought it was different, for it was printed on the keyboard as “2” and “@”, yet, just as i am typing this message, I realised it was no difference. Ha. Just a random comment.
Yes, for the past 2 days I have been trying in vain to blog something... Ha always problem with the word processor or with accessing the blog itself. Anyway, I've found much cheaper food, thanks to the locals, and am adapting much more to the system. Yes, the system here is really dependent on what you want to do, it is very much like in Singapore, except that you take on abit more responsibilities. Ha went to admit a patient the other day, and presented in rounds. Ha but when it came to correcting and carrying out the plans of management, the consultant passed it to the intern. Oh well, ha. And yes, today the other students were all gone, so I got to do and learn much more, cos I was the only student around. i have not taken so many BP before.
Saw myriad of cases, but its starting to be the same... shall look to the surgery side muhahahaha. Anw, I hope to see and do LP today! :P tt's all about it in neurology... I'm still quite averse to doing procedures, but JL has scrubbed in like a few times. Ha but yes, will do LP ha. i try to “disappear” after the rounds while the interns are doing the blood taking. Then I will try to go back when its time for LP ha. But yes, just be careful lorz. Learnt quite a few local lang and the way they speak. it is Lugandan. Mzungu = foreigner; Weebale = thank you, Kale = you're welcome, Olio Otya (pronounced as 'tia') = how are u feeling today? and if you want someone to do something immediately, you have to say “now now” and not just “now” ha.
SHucks can't see the cursor now on the blog. Shall give it abit more patience and see how it goes. Wonder if this blog is going to get thru again! Anw, have received new news that I have gotten a merit for my ethics test. hmmm wow. didnt know i was that ethical ha. yups guess it was just by fluke. Having to study it during the shiong Obstetrics & Gyne posting was bad!
Baaaah. no more medical stuff first. Shall tell you all what i've done so far... Actually looking forward more to the weekends than anything. Ha cos tt's when i get to play! wooo!
Friday when i first reached, i had to change money... wow i changed like more than 2 million shillings. we both freaked out. that was a thick wad of notes. It was all in 20,000 pieces, so its like 3 to 4 cm thick la! then the driver was quite far away and we didnt know where to hide it. Ha i tried to downplay my anxiety and walked coolly towards the car. anw, yups the weather here is hot but not humid, so u sweat less. but need to put sunscreen. Lots of dust, but yes, the place where i'm staying is on the campus, which is built on a hill, so its slightly cooler and the air is really fresh! just that the city and the roads are abit dusty. on the first day when the local student brought us to the market, we were not used to it, for we were the minority and were getting the stares. but guess now its all ok, feeling more like a superstar than anything ha. And yes, at night its darker, cos the lights aren't as aplenty as in Singapore. So had a bit of adjustment to do.
Had a try of the local food, matoke. which is some starch like thing. Taste ok, similar to rice stuff and the like. yups. They usually eat alot of starch together with the sauce, which can be chicken, beef, fish or even goat. yups It is quite nice la. I'm a big rubbish dump, so yups tt's why i tink i dun really mind. Think the Singapore Lei Cha thingy is the worst dish i've tasted so far hahaha.
went to visit many places. last saturday, went to walk ourselves in the streets, just to get a feel, topped up SIM card etc. Then the honey man, Lesster, a very nice fellow Singaporean who owns bee farms and produces honey in Uganda, brought us around and we enjoyed ourselves. He first brought us to this "Atas" place called Garden City, which is a shopping centre, where we ate nice local food. GOAT meat yes. hahaha in other words mutton. Anw then shopped for maps and bought an african recipe book. Then we followed him to an orphanage, that was set up by the swiss. Too bad we didnt get to go in and see...the security was tight, cos they were afraid ppl will come in to take the children for black magic. But yes, according to him, those ppl only wants children without any defects, so they poke ear holes for them, so that they will not catch them. He made it sound scary... they will decapitate the children they catch. But yes, so children, do go get ur ears poked and u're safe. more reasons for girls to poke ear holes hahahaha
then went to his place, and cos the other 4 of my frens who stayed in his house the previous night (getting ready to go up to the more rural part, Kabale) told him that i could cook very well, so yes, he made me cook for him. Ha cooked gong bao ji ding (the chicken u know) and brinjal w bean sauce and just stir fried the vegetables. Yups. Had fun playing with his 2 sheep (ha kor kor note!) and feeding them with cassia leaves. then he has like 6 huge german shepherds! WoW! Ha, but yes, it was under lock. Had great time talking to him, he was a nice person.
Oh yes, he intro us to this Christian and fellow Singaporean who works here and was previously a missionary, when we said we wanted to go to church. And so our sunday was filled with activity too! went to this church called Covenant Nations Church, according to him was started by the first lady and some powerful ppl. it's a small church, and got to know this Congolese couple there, whose whole family have been killed in the civil strife. prayed for them, and for their newborn. Really an experience. Learnt alot from the sermon, about turning round against the devil instead of letting him attack us. Ha then had nice fried chicken with matoke, then went to his house to use the internet, had some singapore peach tea (wow am still missing it, yes the Pokka one; he had his fren bring it) then went to this nice church function - it sorta like a ceremony for the boys turning 13, saying that they are now adults and hold responsibility to God, etc etc. Their commitment and their maturity, especially in Christ was remarkable! Both of us were impressed and JL wanted to implement it in her youth ministry. I thought it was a good idea too! ha shall try to get photos from her and show u all...
the rest of the days i've spent here's all about sch. yups it has been good, as previously mentioned. k shall stop here. do check updates here again!
Sunday, April 06, 2008
Uganda - Pearl of Africa
Finally i have access to the internet. Will just drop a quick note here.
I have reached Uganda safely and thank you all for all the well wishes! Will take care of myself here. These few days have been good, almost like having a tour of Kampala, thanks to the great hospitality of fellow Singaporeans who are living and working in Uganda (there are only 14 of them in total) Have met only a few of them, not all. But yes, it was really fortunate to have them take us around, if not we would be really lost.
The culture here is very much different and it so happens that we are the minority. Read: bad reputation of chinese in Uganda, cos of the way the Chinese ppl do their businesses in Uganda. Yes, so we have been quite careful all the way, even while walking in the streets. But yes, we are able to get around fairly ok, mostly walking cos the public transport is really not that safe actually.
Shall post my travel diary when I am done with it. At least, when I have proper access to Internet. Yups, so just wanna leave a note and wish all well. Take care of yourselves and we shall meet again in 2 months' time.
Yes, i know God will be ahead. So no fear. Will hang in there! :P
I have reached Uganda safely and thank you all for all the well wishes! Will take care of myself here. These few days have been good, almost like having a tour of Kampala, thanks to the great hospitality of fellow Singaporeans who are living and working in Uganda (there are only 14 of them in total) Have met only a few of them, not all. But yes, it was really fortunate to have them take us around, if not we would be really lost.
The culture here is very much different and it so happens that we are the minority. Read: bad reputation of chinese in Uganda, cos of the way the Chinese ppl do their businesses in Uganda. Yes, so we have been quite careful all the way, even while walking in the streets. But yes, we are able to get around fairly ok, mostly walking cos the public transport is really not that safe actually.
Shall post my travel diary when I am done with it. At least, when I have proper access to Internet. Yups, so just wanna leave a note and wish all well. Take care of yourselves and we shall meet again in 2 months' time.
Yes, i know God will be ahead. So no fear. Will hang in there! :P
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
ReflectionZ
Just blogging something that struck me these few days.
There i was, crushing the fish fillet into smaller pieces. For easy chewing and eating. I put it in her spoon, together with some vegetables. Instantly, flashback. Some 18 years ago, i swallowed a fishbone. Did not manage to get it out. Flush it down with water, vegetables or rice, as my parents would say (erhm, now as i've learnt more things, well this is definitely NOT advisable if u accidentally swallow a fishbone). I did. Yet the fear of fish persisted. The next day lunchtime, there i was, staring at the piece of fish and dared not pick it up. For fear of another fishbone. Yet, she patiently crushed the piece of "mai yau" fish (canto) and tried to see and pick out any bone. (yes, even though that type of fish, according to her knowledge, had really really no bones) Then she would encourage me to eat. Bit by bit, slowly, i picked up the pieces and put them in my mouth. Just like what she was doing now. Do not remember much of those days when I was young, just the few precious memories.
Yet, now I looked at her, I am reminded of the sad fact that while I have grown and become more independent and more involved in my own affairs, she has also grown... old. Compared to 18 years ago, she have really aged. No longer is she as nimble, no longer is she as able to pick out bones. No longer she is chewing as well as she did. No longer... ... How long have I not taken her hand and hold it tight. Week after week I visit her, yet she seemed so distant. The visits didnt add on to anything. I can't help but imagine what she has been doing all these while. It seems that I have missed out so much time together with her. Those countless of hours which I have spent outside, working, which I have completed many projects, write ups, tutorials, lectures. What was she doing all this while, while I was in school? Sleeping, watching TV, reading newspaper etc? Well, I would never know what I have missed. Those peaceful quiet times I could have spent holding her hands, speaking to her, talking to her.
And it is really sad. She has many children. All of whom visits her. Yet, they talk among themselves, they talk about her. But who really speaks to her heart? Previously they could have. Now they can't. Whatever you speak, you will have to speak it again. And again.
I am afraid, really afraid. That I might not have much chance to do so. That I might not have time to spend with her. That I might miss out so much of her life. I wonder how different things would be when i return 2 months later. While I am out there trying to experience a new way of life, she is still here, gradually withering away... It has long been since she has had the perfect memory. Now she seems to be even more confused... I don't seem to be able to speak to her heart. The person in her... locked? Life, has reduced... to a point that seemed only mechanical... No intellect, no thoughts to think about. Perhaps the once complex brain is disintegrating to the point of just having spinal reflexes. Message in. Connection. Message out. No retention. Same message in, same message out. Probably a short circuit.
I prayed. I held her hands and prayed...
I went down to this place today. As usual, me in a business like tone. Just wanted to get what I need and leave. Just give a bit of intro and that's it. Then... nearing the end of it all, she said, "Win more souls for Christ!" I felt electrocuted. It just struck me. Ever so hard.
He has done so much for me. It's time I offer myself up to Him.
There i was, crushing the fish fillet into smaller pieces. For easy chewing and eating. I put it in her spoon, together with some vegetables. Instantly, flashback. Some 18 years ago, i swallowed a fishbone. Did not manage to get it out. Flush it down with water, vegetables or rice, as my parents would say (erhm, now as i've learnt more things, well this is definitely NOT advisable if u accidentally swallow a fishbone). I did. Yet the fear of fish persisted. The next day lunchtime, there i was, staring at the piece of fish and dared not pick it up. For fear of another fishbone. Yet, she patiently crushed the piece of "mai yau" fish (canto) and tried to see and pick out any bone. (yes, even though that type of fish, according to her knowledge, had really really no bones) Then she would encourage me to eat. Bit by bit, slowly, i picked up the pieces and put them in my mouth. Just like what she was doing now. Do not remember much of those days when I was young, just the few precious memories.
Yet, now I looked at her, I am reminded of the sad fact that while I have grown and become more independent and more involved in my own affairs, she has also grown... old. Compared to 18 years ago, she have really aged. No longer is she as nimble, no longer is she as able to pick out bones. No longer she is chewing as well as she did. No longer... ... How long have I not taken her hand and hold it tight. Week after week I visit her, yet she seemed so distant. The visits didnt add on to anything. I can't help but imagine what she has been doing all these while. It seems that I have missed out so much time together with her. Those countless of hours which I have spent outside, working, which I have completed many projects, write ups, tutorials, lectures. What was she doing all this while, while I was in school? Sleeping, watching TV, reading newspaper etc? Well, I would never know what I have missed. Those peaceful quiet times I could have spent holding her hands, speaking to her, talking to her.
And it is really sad. She has many children. All of whom visits her. Yet, they talk among themselves, they talk about her. But who really speaks to her heart? Previously they could have. Now they can't. Whatever you speak, you will have to speak it again. And again.
I am afraid, really afraid. That I might not have much chance to do so. That I might not have time to spend with her. That I might miss out so much of her life. I wonder how different things would be when i return 2 months later. While I am out there trying to experience a new way of life, she is still here, gradually withering away... It has long been since she has had the perfect memory. Now she seems to be even more confused... I don't seem to be able to speak to her heart. The person in her... locked? Life, has reduced... to a point that seemed only mechanical... No intellect, no thoughts to think about. Perhaps the once complex brain is disintegrating to the point of just having spinal reflexes. Message in. Connection. Message out. No retention. Same message in, same message out. Probably a short circuit.
I prayed. I held her hands and prayed...
I went down to this place today. As usual, me in a business like tone. Just wanted to get what I need and leave. Just give a bit of intro and that's it. Then... nearing the end of it all, she said, "Win more souls for Christ!" I felt electrocuted. It just struck me. Ever so hard.
He has done so much for me. It's time I offer myself up to Him.
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
HaaaChooooo! Quack Quack! HaaaChooooo!
Yes.
A pastor had a revelation from God, that a virus which had appeared sporadically all over the world in 1988 will return with a greater force in 2008. That virus is bird flu...
Hmmm. Well yes, over the past few years, we have had been seeing a few cases dying cos of Bird Flu.
Today, HK. First case.
Tomorrow? Nobody knows. But we have to be prepared, for another outbreak worse than SARS. Not only medically, but spiritually. For Him to protect and raise our nation. That when the flood comes, we will be able to stay on top and not be drowned.
Just keep our focus on Him.
A pastor had a revelation from God, that a virus which had appeared sporadically all over the world in 1988 will return with a greater force in 2008. That virus is bird flu...
Hmmm. Well yes, over the past few years, we have had been seeing a few cases dying cos of Bird Flu.
Today, HK. First case.
Tomorrow? Nobody knows. But we have to be prepared, for another outbreak worse than SARS. Not only medically, but spiritually. For Him to protect and raise our nation. That when the flood comes, we will be able to stay on top and not be drowned.
Just keep our focus on Him.
Star Bloggers? You ought to reflect!
Hmmm, didn't really feel like blogging, but an article i read on MY paper (Singapore's only bilingual paper) made me feel really uncomfortable... It was the commentary made by Jamie Yeo on the recent NUS survey (hmph I havent heard anything about this at all before this la!) that 64% of students have intercourse at least once a week, the most preferred places were hostels and toilets. (most of the students taking part in the survey were NUS Arts students)
K yes, of course I'd be shocked over the results of the survey. And what made it worse are jamie yeo's comments on it. (n yes, this is the first time I went on Stomp to find out what this website is all about.) Read at: http://starblog.stomp.com.sg/post.php?blogid=740
Firstly, don't we see that itself as a big problem? How many of these people are married? I don't think they are. Sex in itself is a sacred event. It is God's gift to humans. Even if you do not look at it from the Christian's perspective, don't you think it is a sacred event? It is when you give yourself wholly and fully to someone you truly love and will spend your life with. It is such a personal thing between 2 persons that when any other person is involved, the essence, the feeling and the whole enjoyment even will be different, cos the word "love" isn't even in the picture. It is "lust". This is so personal that I cannot even draw an accurate analogy to it. The closest I have would be this: Would you ever ever wear a stranger's WORN underwear??? Don't think you'd wear it even if its your loved ones. Yes, it's that personal! perhaps this analogy might sound weird, but the point i'm trying to make is that how can one be so flippant over such matters? It's giving of your body to another person! So you just give it to anyone? and you give it almost every week?
Secondly, the medical point of view - yups guess you all know. Shan't speak further
Thirdly. Jamie Yeo. (and the rest of the bloggers) She should know that her views are read by many others. It's even on the newspapers. Many other youngsters out there who are still not sure of what love is. She blames the bad press, the media, propagating this message of casual sex. Then what is she doing as a star blogger? She's propagating it too! She even gives examples of her own personal experience, of sleeping with lecturer for good grades, etc. She ends off with a quote taken from the bible: "Let him who is without sin cast the first stone", trying to say that we should not and do not have to judge others, for we are all full of sin. Yes. But Jesus ended the whole story with "Go and sin no more." So indeed we are in no position to judge, but should you, ENCOURAGE people to continue in sin?
Yes, why am I so worked up over this? We have seen all the worst ever on the newspapers - Edison Chen saga etc etc etc. Since it is really nothing new. Yet, I am concerned for our society as a whole. Are we, progressing to a point of no return? The young and the educated. The meaning of presenting your body as a gift to your future spouse to show your love for him/her. You don't even need a degree to understand all these. Yet, people just don't seem to understand.
And from the Christian's point of view. Are we as a society heading towards sin so much, like the city of Sodom? Then we are heading for destruction...
Perhaps I am not good with words, dunno how i can fully put forth my thoughts, but I am really really bothered by this.
God is weeping. We are hurting Him too much. I am saddened.
K yes, of course I'd be shocked over the results of the survey. And what made it worse are jamie yeo's comments on it. (n yes, this is the first time I went on Stomp to find out what this website is all about.) Read at: http://starblog.stomp.com.sg/post.php?blogid=740
Firstly, don't we see that itself as a big problem? How many of these people are married? I don't think they are. Sex in itself is a sacred event. It is God's gift to humans. Even if you do not look at it from the Christian's perspective, don't you think it is a sacred event? It is when you give yourself wholly and fully to someone you truly love and will spend your life with. It is such a personal thing between 2 persons that when any other person is involved, the essence, the feeling and the whole enjoyment even will be different, cos the word "love" isn't even in the picture. It is "lust". This is so personal that I cannot even draw an accurate analogy to it. The closest I have would be this: Would you ever ever wear a stranger's WORN underwear??? Don't think you'd wear it even if its your loved ones. Yes, it's that personal! perhaps this analogy might sound weird, but the point i'm trying to make is that how can one be so flippant over such matters? It's giving of your body to another person! So you just give it to anyone? and you give it almost every week?
Secondly, the medical point of view - yups guess you all know. Shan't speak further
Thirdly. Jamie Yeo. (and the rest of the bloggers) She should know that her views are read by many others. It's even on the newspapers. Many other youngsters out there who are still not sure of what love is. She blames the bad press, the media, propagating this message of casual sex. Then what is she doing as a star blogger? She's propagating it too! She even gives examples of her own personal experience, of sleeping with lecturer for good grades, etc. She ends off with a quote taken from the bible: "Let him who is without sin cast the first stone", trying to say that we should not and do not have to judge others, for we are all full of sin. Yes. But Jesus ended the whole story with "Go and sin no more." So indeed we are in no position to judge, but should you, ENCOURAGE people to continue in sin?
Yes, why am I so worked up over this? We have seen all the worst ever on the newspapers - Edison Chen saga etc etc etc. Since it is really nothing new. Yet, I am concerned for our society as a whole. Are we, progressing to a point of no return? The young and the educated. The meaning of presenting your body as a gift to your future spouse to show your love for him/her. You don't even need a degree to understand all these. Yet, people just don't seem to understand.
And from the Christian's point of view. Are we as a society heading towards sin so much, like the city of Sodom? Then we are heading for destruction...
Perhaps I am not good with words, dunno how i can fully put forth my thoughts, but I am really really bothered by this.
God is weeping. We are hurting Him too much. I am saddened.
Monday, March 10, 2008
What Major is Right for You??
Take this quiz at: http://quizfarm.com/test.php?q_id=35647N
Ha did this quiz when I'm just starting to do data analysis for my project and am already put off... so yes, might have been quite biased. haha anw these are my results. Pretty accurate. haha mabbe cos i'm already in this med mindset and the questions are so predictable of the "major" they're asking of. haha but oh well, just feeling wu liao and putting off doing the data!!!!
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haha so yups, perhaps i should try to pull up my political science score? hmmm but i'm really not tt interested...
anw off the bathing n START data analysis!
Ha did this quiz when I'm just starting to do data analysis for my project and am already put off... so yes, might have been quite biased. haha anw these are my results. Pretty accurate. haha mabbe cos i'm already in this med mindset and the questions are so predictable of the "major" they're asking of. haha but oh well, just feeling wu liao and putting off doing the data!!!!
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| You should strongly consider majoring in Nursing, Athletic Training, or related majors (e.g., Chiropractics, Nutrition/Dietetics, Occupational Therapy, Physical Therapy, Radiologic Technology, Rehabilitation Services, Respiratory Therapy). It is possible that the best major for you is your 2nd, 3rd, or even 5th listed category, so be sure to consider ALL majors in your OTHER high scoring categories (below). You may score high in a category you didnt think you would--it is possible that a great major for you is something you once dismissed as not for you. The right major for you will be something 1) you love and enjoy and 2) are really great at it. Consider adding a minor or double majoring to make yourself standout and to combine your interests. Please post your results in your myspace/blog/journal. | ||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||
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haha so yups, perhaps i should try to pull up my political science score? hmmm but i'm really not tt interested...
anw off the bathing n START data analysis!
Sunday, March 09, 2008
Looking Back
Was looking back at the previous posts. Well yup I know I've morphed, yet I am still surprised. Last time the worries seem, all but so trivial. I used to.. be making a mountain out of a molehill.
Everyone grows. Yet not everyone grows spiritually.
I know I have changed alot. Just that the outside is still not shiny. Shall work on that.
But I know it is not by my own effort.
Go away lethargy!
Night.
Everyone grows. Yet not everyone grows spiritually.
I know I have changed alot. Just that the outside is still not shiny. Shall work on that.
But I know it is not by my own effort.
Go away lethargy!
Night.
Thursday, February 28, 2008
It doesn't matter. It does?
Read my fren's blog. 2 frens actually. Just a thought.
It does not really matter any more. Really.
The cares of the world.
That was what I thought last time.
When you're really tired of the world, you just want to run back and hide under the wings of Papa God.
When I felt like breaking down, when I felt like I could carry on no longer, I run to Him.
How Don Moen's song "Hiding Place" touched my heart then:
"You're my hiding place. I run to you. I need Your mercy and grace. To see me through. So I'll run to You. You are my strength O God. You will uphold me. You are my shield O God. You will protect me. I'll run to You."
That was what I thought LAST TIME. Not anymore.
Yes, in times of weakness, we should seek Him. But the fact that we are able to have Someone to run to is our privilege. What about those who does not have anyone to run to, for they have not been redeemed? Who can they turn to then?
So when we're out of our weakness, remember the Grace He has shown.
We are called to be His light. We are to be a reflection of His light. So how can we give up and just think about running back into His wings? Draw strength from Him and move on, to help others in greater need, pray for grace to be upon them.
The oft quoted phrase from Spiderman: With great powers come great responsibility. True to a great deal!
It does not really matter any more. Really.
The cares of the world.
That was what I thought last time.
When you're really tired of the world, you just want to run back and hide under the wings of Papa God.
When I felt like breaking down, when I felt like I could carry on no longer, I run to Him.
How Don Moen's song "Hiding Place" touched my heart then:
"You're my hiding place. I run to you. I need Your mercy and grace. To see me through. So I'll run to You. You are my strength O God. You will uphold me. You are my shield O God. You will protect me. I'll run to You."
That was what I thought LAST TIME. Not anymore.
Yes, in times of weakness, we should seek Him. But the fact that we are able to have Someone to run to is our privilege. What about those who does not have anyone to run to, for they have not been redeemed? Who can they turn to then?
So when we're out of our weakness, remember the Grace He has shown.
We are called to be His light. We are to be a reflection of His light. So how can we give up and just think about running back into His wings? Draw strength from Him and move on, to help others in greater need, pray for grace to be upon them.
The oft quoted phrase from Spiderman: With great powers come great responsibility. True to a great deal!
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
Love
Yes.
This is the word which fills each and every day of my life.
I'm loving every moment, relishing it, basking in it.
I am so glad I amredeemed.
His Love makes me breathless.
Every day of my life, no matter how tiring it seems, is full of joy.
Confident of His Love, I press on.
Love God so much, that I just love to sit there and enjoy His presence.
Yet, the more breath taking truth: while my love can change, He loves me much more and His Love never change.
No.
Have heard people saying that the Bible itself is full of contradictions.
Hmmm that is not a new thing.
The Bible has been under attack for centuries, yet it prevails.
If you trust that I have that little bit of intellect, then probably you can trust me on this.
I once thought that the Bible is full of contradictions too, but I overcame the intellectual barrier.
For the Bible is not full of contradictions. In fact, it is logical and true - historical, literary, etc proofs have all shown that the Bible can stand any test. For it is the word of God.
If you're really bothered by this, just email me or leave a comment, I'd be glad to take time off to address any doubts anyone has! :P
Hmmm yes.
i don't usually blog about my day, seldom update my happenings.
Just my thoughts.
And yups as you can see, my thoughts are full of God! Haha quoting the favourite MacDonald's phrase "I'm loving it."
kk gotta mug. took too much time off!
This is the word which fills each and every day of my life.
I'm loving every moment, relishing it, basking in it.
I am so glad I amredeemed.
His Love makes me breathless.
Every day of my life, no matter how tiring it seems, is full of joy.
Confident of His Love, I press on.
Love God so much, that I just love to sit there and enjoy His presence.
Yet, the more breath taking truth: while my love can change, He loves me much more and His Love never change.
No.
Have heard people saying that the Bible itself is full of contradictions.
Hmmm that is not a new thing.
The Bible has been under attack for centuries, yet it prevails.
If you trust that I have that little bit of intellect, then probably you can trust me on this.
I once thought that the Bible is full of contradictions too, but I overcame the intellectual barrier.
For the Bible is not full of contradictions. In fact, it is logical and true - historical, literary, etc proofs have all shown that the Bible can stand any test. For it is the word of God.
If you're really bothered by this, just email me or leave a comment, I'd be glad to take time off to address any doubts anyone has! :P
Hmmm yes.
i don't usually blog about my day, seldom update my happenings.
Just my thoughts.
And yups as you can see, my thoughts are full of God! Haha quoting the favourite MacDonald's phrase "I'm loving it."
kk gotta mug. took too much time off!
Sunday, February 24, 2008
Random Note
Am encouraged at what He is doing in others' lives. Just received an email from my good friend. And I am absolutely amazed at God! He is touching many out there, transforming lives. I am greatly encouraged!
Yet, as I look around me, there are still many who has yet to know God. But I have the confidence, that He will work in them as how He has worked in my friend's life. For He loves us so much, that He will not forsake us. He loves us so much that even though He knows that some will turn away from Him in future, He still wants to try to bring us into His presence.
As for me. Peace is prevailing in me now. Was previously quite at a loss. Though now I am still at a loss, I have peace in Him. "mulling" was the word, yet now it isn't. Though nothing has been confirmed yet, but I am in perfect confidence of Him. He will show us where He wants us to be. Be filled with righteousness and a pure heart and He will reveal to us His plan for us.
May the love of God manifest in all of us!
Ha dunno what else I should write. Just know that my mind is full of Him, my Lord. And I am enjoying this!
Yet, as I look around me, there are still many who has yet to know God. But I have the confidence, that He will work in them as how He has worked in my friend's life. For He loves us so much, that He will not forsake us. He loves us so much that even though He knows that some will turn away from Him in future, He still wants to try to bring us into His presence.
As for me. Peace is prevailing in me now. Was previously quite at a loss. Though now I am still at a loss, I have peace in Him. "mulling" was the word, yet now it isn't. Though nothing has been confirmed yet, but I am in perfect confidence of Him. He will show us where He wants us to be. Be filled with righteousness and a pure heart and He will reveal to us His plan for us.
May the love of God manifest in all of us!
Ha dunno what else I should write. Just know that my mind is full of Him, my Lord. And I am enjoying this!
Sunday, February 03, 2008
Wahahaha 6 months!
ha tempted to wait till 5th of feb to make it a whole 6 mths. but yups since im online and dun feel like packing stuff, i'd just blog!
these 6 mths... long ride! but i can only say the most amazing thing in my life that happened is still spiritual growth! That is the most precious and valuable to me! God!
Life is so interesting! Many ups and downs - the cycle just continues. However, only God is constant and it is Him who carries me through! Even though now im still at the crossroads in some aspects of my life, I am confident and not exactly worried about what lies ahead, for I know He will lead me. I just have to obey, absolute obedience!
many have asked why did i choose the word ferret. well as you know ferret (noun) = a type of animal, but also means "an assiduous search". Set up this blog when I was still backsliding, when I was still searching for the truth. Yet, now that I have found it, it is still an endless search for God. There are new things to be learnt, there are more truths to be discovered!
hmmm well, shall think about what to write first... meanwhile, will just post mini blog notes which i write in my hp whenever i feel like it. Ha!
05 06 2007
Have not talked so much to so many people in a long while… Have not watched such an early movie for a long while… Have not experienced early morning jog on a weekday until today… I’m truly enjoying myself…Life is so much more interesting when you’re not forcing facts into you head… Maybe one should meet up with his friends during our break every year… Mundane things seem so much more precious now. And yes having the time to walk with the Lord quietly is a blessing!
07 06 2007
Used to think 1 hour is so short… Run for half an hour, after all the cooling down it’d be gone. Mug less than a chapter. Clerk maybe 2 patients. A TV serial. Dinner time plus some TV. But today, in 1 hour I’ve collected my printer, brought it home, tested, tried to get a cat to respond and when I finally arrived at the same bench at the MRT station, I looked up… Exactly 1 hour. Wow. Maybe it’s the way we do things… But yet if every hour was as stressed as this, we probably won’t have many hours left…
08 06 2007
Not sure why, but I seem to be able to connect to the more grassroots people… Probably that’s cos where I grew up. However, I really think I’m more quiet and don’t really know how to express myself. Yes the word is shy. N I do not open up easily,,, Though I look very much extroverted but in fact I’m really quite an introvert. Yup and I think I have the Singaporean syndrome… Keep quiet and more stoic, unless I’m really offended. It’s kinda weird cos on one hand I’m extro, like to do outdoor stuff but when it comes to starting conversation and knowing new friends I’m rather shy, if left on my own. I fare much better when there’s someone to company… just some random tots…
17 08 2007
Marching phenomenon at outram park NEL vs EWL. No one talks! Only footsteps in unison!
Shuttle bus to KK from Bugis. By word of mouth I got to know about it, but word of mouth I confirmed its existence – from the MRT staff. There was no sign no nothing at the bus stop, only a queue. And I joined the queue with no questions asked. Interesting how Singaporeans behave, me included ha. And the queue just kept on growing… In silence.
31 08 2007
I saw the same shirt twice worn by different persons, at different places. It says ‘I Love Life’. Sets me thinking. Guess it’s a privilege to be able to love life. How can you love life if you’re born with cerebral palsy, premature with multiple organ failure and so on. When you are hooked on machines for life or just lie ties plainly moving involuntarily with no inkling of what’s happening around you cos your brain hasn’t a chance to develop? N you get
03 11 2007
Today… I saw how unlimited maternal love seemed. She’d be a good example to be on an ad regarding the joy of motherhood. On the MRT she was carrying one infant and playing with her. When her older child showed signs of wanting attention (pulling on tt arm which was ‘entertaining’ his sibling) and tiredness, she carried her baby higher, to make space on her lap for the older child to lie on. Joy was written all over her face. Nothing seemed to daunt her. Nothing tt her children does. Entertainer of her children. Energetic! Motherly love and happiness simply exude. One word: respect.
And give it a thought - this motherly love which seems boundless - why can’t we apply this love, to people around us? Love is the only thing that knows no boundaries. And it can be done. So why not? And how much more is God’s love for us? The boundless love which God promised, is true!
18 11 2007
I actually miss the weekly tuition sessions… Actually mis my tutee. Hmm didn’t say much to him on the last session, but yup sincerely hope the best for him.
22 12 2007
What does ‘family’ mean to u? It is some place where there is love, where you are valued, where you grew up. However, it is this ‘family’ that seems so different from ‘the rest of your friends’. And we tend to neglect that fact.
They are the people most dear to you, but yet it is most difficult to talk to them about things close to heart, especially when you’re on opposite ends of the word ‘religion’. You know them too well, you know how they’re like and you know further probing will turn the tables and the door is shut. So how do you every try, how do you ever start? Especially in the Chinese culture where ur elders are always right and not to be questioned or doubted. Your credibility is zero when facing them. And they too don’t question what they’ve done, for years. Some things that seem so obvious. Yes, I only know that the human effort is limited in our trying. Only grace will change anything and everything. Grace be upon my family, I pray.
13 01 2008
Presence of God. Was overwhelmed at the Heidi Baker conference. I just know that I have to go forth and live for Him, and be a testimony of His Love! And yes, in Africa many people are poor and they know it. Yet in Singapore, many people are spiritually poor, yet they do not know it. It really saddens me for when I turn around and look at the people around me, so many of them still do not know God, still do not know the truth. It is my responsibility to go forth and show them who God is, what He does.
24 01 2008
My tutee got back his O levels. I felt really very happy for him. In fact I never knew that I could derive such satisfaction from teaching. He did not do exactly very well overall. It was his standard. However, of all his subjects, he scored highest in those 3 subjects which I taught. He got grades which I never dreamt he’d get, albeit not the best score possible. And I was really happy for him. Yet, he did poorly for those subjects which I did not teach. So yups, not sure if I could be entirely happy about it.
but yups, definitely feel a sense of satisfaction.
28 01 2008
Ha so shi bai staring at someone yet when he saw me had to look away ha. Cos he was putting on his contact lenses in the MRT! wow! so super! if it was me, I would have dropped it or shove it into the back of my eye.
these 6 mths... long ride! but i can only say the most amazing thing in my life that happened is still spiritual growth! That is the most precious and valuable to me! God!
Life is so interesting! Many ups and downs - the cycle just continues. However, only God is constant and it is Him who carries me through! Even though now im still at the crossroads in some aspects of my life, I am confident and not exactly worried about what lies ahead, for I know He will lead me. I just have to obey, absolute obedience!
many have asked why did i choose the word ferret. well as you know ferret (noun) = a type of animal, but also means "an assiduous search". Set up this blog when I was still backsliding, when I was still searching for the truth. Yet, now that I have found it, it is still an endless search for God. There are new things to be learnt, there are more truths to be discovered!
hmmm well, shall think about what to write first... meanwhile, will just post mini blog notes which i write in my hp whenever i feel like it. Ha!
05 06 2007
Have not talked so much to so many people in a long while… Have not watched such an early movie for a long while… Have not experienced early morning jog on a weekday until today… I’m truly enjoying myself…Life is so much more interesting when you’re not forcing facts into you head… Maybe one should meet up with his friends during our break every year… Mundane things seem so much more precious now. And yes having the time to walk with the Lord quietly is a blessing!
07 06 2007
Used to think 1 hour is so short… Run for half an hour, after all the cooling down it’d be gone. Mug less than a chapter. Clerk maybe 2 patients. A TV serial. Dinner time plus some TV. But today, in 1 hour I’ve collected my printer, brought it home, tested, tried to get a cat to respond and when I finally arrived at the same bench at the MRT station, I looked up… Exactly 1 hour. Wow. Maybe it’s the way we do things… But yet if every hour was as stressed as this, we probably won’t have many hours left…
08 06 2007
Not sure why, but I seem to be able to connect to the more grassroots people… Probably that’s cos where I grew up. However, I really think I’m more quiet and don’t really know how to express myself. Yes the word is shy. N I do not open up easily,,, Though I look very much extroverted but in fact I’m really quite an introvert. Yup and I think I have the Singaporean syndrome… Keep quiet and more stoic, unless I’m really offended. It’s kinda weird cos on one hand I’m extro, like to do outdoor stuff but when it comes to starting conversation and knowing new friends I’m rather shy, if left on my own. I fare much better when there’s someone to company… just some random tots…
17 08 2007
Marching phenomenon at outram park NEL vs EWL. No one talks! Only footsteps in unison!
Shuttle bus to KK from Bugis. By word of mouth I got to know about it, but word of mouth I confirmed its existence – from the MRT staff. There was no sign no nothing at the bus stop, only a queue. And I joined the queue with no questions asked. Interesting how Singaporeans behave, me included ha. And the queue just kept on growing… In silence.
31 08 2007
I saw the same shirt twice worn by different persons, at different places. It says ‘I Love Life’. Sets me thinking. Guess it’s a privilege to be able to love life. How can you love life if you’re born with cerebral palsy, premature with multiple organ failure and so on. When you are hooked on machines for life or just lie ties plainly moving involuntarily with no inkling of what’s happening around you cos your brain hasn’t a chance to develop? N you get
03 11 2007
Today… I saw how unlimited maternal love seemed. She’d be a good example to be on an ad regarding the joy of motherhood. On the MRT she was carrying one infant and playing with her. When her older child showed signs of wanting attention (pulling on tt arm which was ‘entertaining’ his sibling) and tiredness, she carried her baby higher, to make space on her lap for the older child to lie on. Joy was written all over her face. Nothing seemed to daunt her. Nothing tt her children does. Entertainer of her children. Energetic! Motherly love and happiness simply exude. One word: respect.
And give it a thought - this motherly love which seems boundless - why can’t we apply this love, to people around us? Love is the only thing that knows no boundaries. And it can be done. So why not? And how much more is God’s love for us? The boundless love which God promised, is true!
18 11 2007
I actually miss the weekly tuition sessions… Actually mis my tutee. Hmm didn’t say much to him on the last session, but yup sincerely hope the best for him.
22 12 2007
What does ‘family’ mean to u? It is some place where there is love, where you are valued, where you grew up. However, it is this ‘family’ that seems so different from ‘the rest of your friends’. And we tend to neglect that fact.
They are the people most dear to you, but yet it is most difficult to talk to them about things close to heart, especially when you’re on opposite ends of the word ‘religion’. You know them too well, you know how they’re like and you know further probing will turn the tables and the door is shut. So how do you every try, how do you ever start? Especially in the Chinese culture where ur elders are always right and not to be questioned or doubted. Your credibility is zero when facing them. And they too don’t question what they’ve done, for years. Some things that seem so obvious. Yes, I only know that the human effort is limited in our trying. Only grace will change anything and everything. Grace be upon my family, I pray.
13 01 2008
Presence of God. Was overwhelmed at the Heidi Baker conference. I just know that I have to go forth and live for Him, and be a testimony of His Love! And yes, in Africa many people are poor and they know it. Yet in Singapore, many people are spiritually poor, yet they do not know it. It really saddens me for when I turn around and look at the people around me, so many of them still do not know God, still do not know the truth. It is my responsibility to go forth and show them who God is, what He does.
24 01 2008
My tutee got back his O levels. I felt really very happy for him. In fact I never knew that I could derive such satisfaction from teaching. He did not do exactly very well overall. It was his standard. However, of all his subjects, he scored highest in those 3 subjects which I taught. He got grades which I never dreamt he’d get, albeit not the best score possible. And I was really happy for him. Yet, he did poorly for those subjects which I did not teach. So yups, not sure if I could be entirely happy about it.
but yups, definitely feel a sense of satisfaction.
28 01 2008
Ha so shi bai staring at someone yet when he saw me had to look away ha. Cos he was putting on his contact lenses in the MRT! wow! so super! if it was me, I would have dropped it or shove it into the back of my eye.
Sunday, August 05, 2007
Starting All Over
Hmmm the past few months have been eventful - done many things, met many people, had many postings, but yet the most significant and dear to me is of course about God.
Was thrown into confusion once, and backslided yet again... However, it dawned upon me what little faith I had. Watched the DVD "Faith like Potatoes" and was totally blown away by the faith of Augus, a real missionary in Africa...
I was confused previously, for I encountered some parts of my life and I felt that I could not hear, see or feel Him, His presence, which was previously there, now began to be seem eluded... I realised, through people around me and the things I have heard or seen, that the timing was probably not right, and it was not His will yet. So I have to be patient.
Even though I cannot see, feel or hear Him right now - I have heard Him in the past. And I cannot deny His presence, for He has done so many things in the world, so many miracles, touched so many lives... I simply cannot deny His presence, for He is real, He is the truth. So even though now I don't see or hear Him, does not mean He is not there. It is a period of time for Him to stay silent. NO MATTER WHAT, I WILL STAY CLOSE TO HIM, I WILL CONTINUE PRAYING, I WILL CONTINUE READING HIS WORD. This is perhaps, a test of faith, so I will persevere... Faith is probably believing even though you do not see or hear Him physically, cos I know He is the way, the truth and the life...
Started reading the Bible from all over again! And came across the following in the book What the Bible is All About - Bible Handbook by Dr Henrietta C. Mears. I am amazed... through so many years of reading the Bible I didnt (well i sorta did but never saw it so crystal clear) that all the books made up one big story which is all linked in such an amazingly clear manner when u look at it from a broad perspective (yes, usually we read snippets of it... this verse and that chapter and hope to get some wisdom) and everything is linked so beautifully! The Word of God
Yups so the following is my "notes" haha copyright k.
__________________________________________
That's all from me for now!!!!! :P
Was thrown into confusion once, and backslided yet again... However, it dawned upon me what little faith I had. Watched the DVD "Faith like Potatoes" and was totally blown away by the faith of Augus, a real missionary in Africa...
I was confused previously, for I encountered some parts of my life and I felt that I could not hear, see or feel Him, His presence, which was previously there, now began to be seem eluded... I realised, through people around me and the things I have heard or seen, that the timing was probably not right, and it was not His will yet. So I have to be patient.
Even though I cannot see, feel or hear Him right now - I have heard Him in the past. And I cannot deny His presence, for He has done so many things in the world, so many miracles, touched so many lives... I simply cannot deny His presence, for He is real, He is the truth. So even though now I don't see or hear Him, does not mean He is not there. It is a period of time for Him to stay silent. NO MATTER WHAT, I WILL STAY CLOSE TO HIM, I WILL CONTINUE PRAYING, I WILL CONTINUE READING HIS WORD. This is perhaps, a test of faith, so I will persevere... Faith is probably believing even though you do not see or hear Him physically, cos I know He is the way, the truth and the life...
Started reading the Bible from all over again! And came across the following in the book What the Bible is All About - Bible Handbook by Dr Henrietta C. Mears. I am amazed... through so many years of reading the Bible I didnt (well i sorta did but never saw it so crystal clear) that all the books made up one big story which is all linked in such an amazingly clear manner when u look at it from a broad perspective (yes, usually we read snippets of it... this verse and that chapter and hope to get some wisdom) and everything is linked so beautifully! The Word of God
Yups so the following is my "notes" haha copyright k.
__________________________________________
(this section has been removed, for the formatting has gone warped and i dunno how to fix it!)
That's all from me for now!!!!! :P
Tuesday, May 29, 2007
The greatest of these is LOVE
No matter what we're doing, no matter how busy we are, no matter how we feel, we must never, never forget to show love. We must not wait until it's too late. Let us tell someone that we love them; we dare not wait for life to pass us by. Let us get on with it; let us enjoy life to the fullest.
That is what God told me many days ago, but it was not until now did I truly reflect upon it... I was too taken up by school, by all the test and all the memorising... Many a time i wanted to find my friends, contact them by email (especially those overseas), chat with them, meet up with them, but it was always put off by one word: LATER.
This word did change after I heard that an ex-schoolmate committed suicide... the feeling was one like "so near yet so far"; i began to be more concerned with my friend who had some problems, sent many smses and so on... but yet, still i know, i know that my life was primarily revolving school, mugging and more mugging.
N yes, today I took my test, and realised that all those mugging (well it did help) was meaningless. only had one effect, which was to pass... and after that no other benefits... It was during this period when I had one week of fever coupled with the impending workload and tests that made me feel "burnt-out" and how meaningless all those were, that I have actually given up many other precious relationships through all these mugging...
I really don't think it is worth it... yes... tt's y i sorta decided that probably i might not be a paediatrician after all... probably a less stressful and less exams route of a GP might be what I really want, so that I can do much more... serving God, catching up with friends and not caught up with endless climbing of a specialist... Even when one becomes a consultant, he might not have a better time... so why sacrifice so many years for something that seems much less fruitful?
Food for thought...
Just what I'm feeling right now
n yes, I want to thank God for being with me throughout this period. I'm not sure why I felt so stressed. n yups to all those friends who put up with my ramblings these few days, thanks! N yes, it is when we are weak do we see God's strength...
N to all those friends whom I have neglected, really really sorry... I want to make it up I want to meet up with all of you!!!!
The greatest thing of all in this world, is LOVE. yes, express your love to all the people around you starting today! do not wait till it is too late!!!!
That is what God told me many days ago, but it was not until now did I truly reflect upon it... I was too taken up by school, by all the test and all the memorising... Many a time i wanted to find my friends, contact them by email (especially those overseas), chat with them, meet up with them, but it was always put off by one word: LATER.
This word did change after I heard that an ex-schoolmate committed suicide... the feeling was one like "so near yet so far"; i began to be more concerned with my friend who had some problems, sent many smses and so on... but yet, still i know, i know that my life was primarily revolving school, mugging and more mugging.
N yes, today I took my test, and realised that all those mugging (well it did help) was meaningless. only had one effect, which was to pass... and after that no other benefits... It was during this period when I had one week of fever coupled with the impending workload and tests that made me feel "burnt-out" and how meaningless all those were, that I have actually given up many other precious relationships through all these mugging...
I really don't think it is worth it... yes... tt's y i sorta decided that probably i might not be a paediatrician after all... probably a less stressful and less exams route of a GP might be what I really want, so that I can do much more... serving God, catching up with friends and not caught up with endless climbing of a specialist... Even when one becomes a consultant, he might not have a better time... so why sacrifice so many years for something that seems much less fruitful?
Food for thought...
Just what I'm feeling right now
n yes, I want to thank God for being with me throughout this period. I'm not sure why I felt so stressed. n yups to all those friends who put up with my ramblings these few days, thanks! N yes, it is when we are weak do we see God's strength...
N to all those friends whom I have neglected, really really sorry... I want to make it up I want to meet up with all of you!!!!
The greatest thing of all in this world, is LOVE. yes, express your love to all the people around you starting today! do not wait till it is too late!!!!
Friday, April 20, 2007
Take a Little Time Off
Many people gasp at the breath-taking scenery they see when they are abroad; many exclaim the wonders of nature when they visit other places with forests or mountains they have never seen before. Yet, many do not realise that we are experiencing the wonders of nature everyday.
Have you ever stopped and look at the clouds in the midst of your mundane walk home and admire the beautiful pictures formed? Have you ever looked at the trees near your home sway in the breeze and have a sense of peace within you? Have you ever looked at the wonderful creation surrounding us everyday?
The answer most people have is no.
But yes, I have done all that, today.
I looked up to the sky and realised that beauty of the numerous fluffy white and grey clouds. Each time you look at the sky, it paints a different picture for you. The trails of a fighter plane, the figures of two people or even little dogs running across... each have a different story to tell. Such is the beauty of God's creation!
I stared at the angsana tree. It swayed slowly in the breeze, with some flowers at the tip. The rustle of the leaves sing a melodious song of peace. Such is the beauty of God's creation.
Even though the trees are planted by men deliberately in straight rows along the road, even though many buildings line the world we live in now, yet, if we spend time looking at snippets of nature sprouting through concrete land, we can see that no matter how much humans try to create their own world, we can never deny God's wonderful creation of the world.
Appreciation of His creation does not need to be a trip to the Niagara Falls or the Grand Canyon.
It can merely be taking time off our busy schedules and looking around us. We can find all the wonder that we can ever imagine...
In fact, our breathing, our lights and every other thing that is needed to create the man-made world stems from only one - God.
I have started on my journey in experiencing Him all over again and i am reminded of how much I have forgotten the things that He has done for me. Time and again, I forsake my Creator, I turn away, I forget, but never once will He leave me alone.
How about you? Are you avoiding Him today?
He only wants to have a friendship with all of us. As simple as that. So try to get acquianted with Him!
Have you ever stopped and look at the clouds in the midst of your mundane walk home and admire the beautiful pictures formed? Have you ever looked at the trees near your home sway in the breeze and have a sense of peace within you? Have you ever looked at the wonderful creation surrounding us everyday?
The answer most people have is no.
But yes, I have done all that, today.
I looked up to the sky and realised that beauty of the numerous fluffy white and grey clouds. Each time you look at the sky, it paints a different picture for you. The trails of a fighter plane, the figures of two people or even little dogs running across... each have a different story to tell. Such is the beauty of God's creation!
I stared at the angsana tree. It swayed slowly in the breeze, with some flowers at the tip. The rustle of the leaves sing a melodious song of peace. Such is the beauty of God's creation.
Even though the trees are planted by men deliberately in straight rows along the road, even though many buildings line the world we live in now, yet, if we spend time looking at snippets of nature sprouting through concrete land, we can see that no matter how much humans try to create their own world, we can never deny God's wonderful creation of the world.
Appreciation of His creation does not need to be a trip to the Niagara Falls or the Grand Canyon.
It can merely be taking time off our busy schedules and looking around us. We can find all the wonder that we can ever imagine...
In fact, our breathing, our lights and every other thing that is needed to create the man-made world stems from only one - God.
I have started on my journey in experiencing Him all over again and i am reminded of how much I have forgotten the things that He has done for me. Time and again, I forsake my Creator, I turn away, I forget, but never once will He leave me alone.
How about you? Are you avoiding Him today?
He only wants to have a friendship with all of us. As simple as that. So try to get acquianted with Him!
Sunday, March 18, 2007
一感而发
已许久没用华文。还记得以前中学时代，时常用中文抒发感情、想法。毕竟，一字涵数意--有时唯有“知音人”才能参透其中含义。
也因为这样，中文退步，英文裹足不前，变得两头不到岸。这。。。也许就是我生命中的写照：什么都两头不到岸。
也已许久没上博克。久了，读者淡忘这博克的存在，而我，又得回自己需要的私人空间。 喜欢这种在广阔的互联网上有个曝露中带私隐的空间。也许就是这样，人们才能在博克上畅所欲言。
想了很多，一切能以两字形容：单累。
今天与好朋友谈天，往事一涌而上。忽然发现自己以遗忘了那么多。也非常想念当初那单纯、赤心的日子。但，一切不堪回首。遗憾。曾畅谈无束、知心解灵的朋友，在光阴下，变成无言的对象。只能说：你还好吗? 并只是互相述自己的境况。只能长叹了。
有个好朋友说了那么一句：你是非常独立的那种，所以应该不要紧！这句话，让我想起了许多。事实如何，只有我知道。
伪装，似乎是一首主题曲。而配合这首曲子的插曲便是封闭。不知曾几何时，有了这主题曲，也因而越唱越起劲。开始是为自保，用这曲的旋律抵挡外来刺痛的杂音。犹如蛋黄蛋壳般：插曲叠了一层又一层。一切变得模糊。最后，以卵击石也成假象。石头都列了。
久了，这卵只想回到巢中。累了。但，这卵以变。巢中多了一粒石头。蛋黄也已不能流出那厚厚的壳。刺痛。
除此，也了解三人行必有一失的道理。一人一心，不能一心二用。这非常简单的道理，是在许多场合都看到，不只在情感上。也因为封闭，所以发觉第三者大多是俺。
也了解唱不同主题曲的人，频率无法一致，无论付出多少努力，最后还是以累收场。
单、累。
也因为这样，中文退步，英文裹足不前，变得两头不到岸。这。。。也许就是我生命中的写照：什么都两头不到岸。
也已许久没上博克。久了，读者淡忘这博克的存在，而我，又得回自己需要的私人空间。 喜欢这种在广阔的互联网上有个曝露中带私隐的空间。也许就是这样，人们才能在博克上畅所欲言。
想了很多，一切能以两字形容：单累。
今天与好朋友谈天，往事一涌而上。忽然发现自己以遗忘了那么多。也非常想念当初那单纯、赤心的日子。但，一切不堪回首。遗憾。曾畅谈无束、知心解灵的朋友，在光阴下，变成无言的对象。只能说：你还好吗? 并只是互相述自己的境况。只能长叹了。
有个好朋友说了那么一句：你是非常独立的那种，所以应该不要紧！这句话，让我想起了许多。事实如何，只有我知道。
伪装，似乎是一首主题曲。而配合这首曲子的插曲便是封闭。不知曾几何时，有了这主题曲，也因而越唱越起劲。开始是为自保，用这曲的旋律抵挡外来刺痛的杂音。犹如蛋黄蛋壳般：插曲叠了一层又一层。一切变得模糊。最后，以卵击石也成假象。石头都列了。
久了，这卵只想回到巢中。累了。但，这卵以变。巢中多了一粒石头。蛋黄也已不能流出那厚厚的壳。刺痛。
除此，也了解三人行必有一失的道理。一人一心，不能一心二用。这非常简单的道理，是在许多场合都看到，不只在情感上。也因为封闭，所以发觉第三者大多是俺。
也了解唱不同主题曲的人，频率无法一致，无论付出多少努力，最后还是以累收场。
单、累。
Thursday, October 19, 2006
CrOsSrOaDs
dunno but juz feel tt i'm alw at the crossroads in many aspects.... n its cos of these crossroads, i nvr seem to be able to progress or go further... so while all others are moving ahead... i'm stuck at the same spot... alone....
dun like such crossroads.... for due to many factors, i'm usually a hesitant person n so many chances, slip away, cos i was merely standing rooted to the crossroads.... everyday tt i cant cross the current crossroad, i will nvr be able to progress... cos i have to make a decision... n after every one there's yet another crossroad...
if nt for many factors, i'd just merely have gone forward... nt miss any cars passing the roads, yet things are not tt easy as it seems... to take the first step often show a direct deviation frm the other road...in fact its much opposite... n there is no 3rd road.
guess the first step is always the hardest.... to pull ur leg from tt depth of soil u've been standing on for dunno how long is so tough... i can only fell myself sinking further down...
confused...
there should be only roads with branching off... not cross roads..... things shld juz be simple... yet they arent
dun like such crossroads.... for due to many factors, i'm usually a hesitant person n so many chances, slip away, cos i was merely standing rooted to the crossroads.... everyday tt i cant cross the current crossroad, i will nvr be able to progress... cos i have to make a decision... n after every one there's yet another crossroad...
if nt for many factors, i'd just merely have gone forward... nt miss any cars passing the roads, yet things are not tt easy as it seems... to take the first step often show a direct deviation frm the other road...in fact its much opposite... n there is no 3rd road.
guess the first step is always the hardest.... to pull ur leg from tt depth of soil u've been standing on for dunno how long is so tough... i can only fell myself sinking further down...
confused...
there should be only roads with branching off... not cross roads..... things shld juz be simple... yet they arent
hahaha same name???
it's just when u're bored... n dunno why tagboard requires u to login... n etc n etc... that when u start to google ur name and see wat the search yield. hahaha well erhm yes... try it! haha i was surprised to get such a good long list of sites haha i didnt know there were ppl having the same name as me... using 2 "n"s instead of one at the back hahahaha
well so the search yielded things like haha intel general manager, house officer in some English hospital (wow... i hope tt will be me) haha and researcher n etc etc... all like so famous hahaha with many sites.... some had the attachment "MD" or "PhD" etc etc hahaha all so smart
goodness...
will it ever be my turn? haha dunno... its tooooooooooooooooooo long ahead to think.... my sml brain cant take it hahahaha
yupz
well so the search yielded things like haha intel general manager, house officer in some English hospital (wow... i hope tt will be me) haha and researcher n etc etc... all like so famous hahaha with many sites.... some had the attachment "MD" or "PhD" etc etc hahaha all so smart
goodness...
will it ever be my turn? haha dunno... its tooooooooooooooooooo long ahead to think.... my sml brain cant take it hahahaha
yupz
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